Mental Monologues

[Steave]

To you,

 My name is steave, I often am what you might call odd, I do not follow the picture of the secular dream which I firmly believe many  of you here at CAF do not either.  I often mentally monologue to myself, yet always keep to myself.  I thought I would start posting my monologues, weather anyone reads or not. They would not be read anyway, I hope they cause good for either the readers or myself.

Monologue 1004 : What causes us to lose our childhood excitement?

  Take a 4 year old boy or girl, and take them to the zoo, park, carnival, six flags. What happens? They are engulfed by its majesty, in awe of all that it has to offer. They never want to leave; they constantly desire the majesty. 

  Take the same scenario and switch the 4 year old to a 16 year old, the normal response is going to be boredom.  Even someone of my age or older we might say great initially, but in time the reputation of the events excitement withers.
I have crossed paths with two people now who have retained the excitement of a child, and how I desire their simplicity.  Both have less material than most, much less than those who are close to them, both are not blessed with what this world ousts in good looks athleticism. Yet the smile they wake with live with and exist with is of the utmost desire to those who understand what they have.

The joy they receive from living life is unmatchable, I have never heard either say the words: this is boring, or I had a boring day, I have never heard either complain about work that needs to be done, I hardly ever see either get frustrated.

My desire is to live like this, what does it take? Though a better question lies in how can I revert once again there? What changes need to be made, I believe in a God and that God be the only mover that allow me to do anything, but I also firmly believe that God is one who helps those who help themselves.  

 The modern belief in God’s mercy has caused an insurmountable Christian complacency. How often have I overlooked God’s will and partake in ill action and excused my action with a statement of "God is a loving God, he will foregive me." That statement is empty, God will forgive but the consequences of your actions will not be caused by God, but by your own doing, therefore the statement is empty because of the modern outlook of God’s mercy discounts the self imposed burden of sin. 

 God is where a content life lies, but, why did I stray from him?  He is obviously not my only need for happiness, why do I rely on what the world says is happiness? The indulgence of sin causes a thirst for what God specifically said we shall not have. An apple one day made the world tilt on its side, and in the very same action God was removed from the fore vision of his creation.  Abandoned by his own children, and still ready to forgive, a loss of child like desire is not by God’s will. Thus the loss of a child like eye for this world has been brought forth by delving in what our hearts were not created to be in. 

The beauty of living life like a child, I see it in my two friends, Is it only by grace? Can you only be born into a child like love for the world? Is having a child like love for the world God's grace?  Is it only when God turns over his majestic hand and allow me, his image his desire, to want the world he created for me? Or is the answer self accountability and remorse to revert to where God had created us to be?

 

[FidesSpesCarita]

Well, I read your post, and I enjoyed it. Thank you. And very very good points and questions. I wish I had answers, because I would be doing them…

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[Steave]

I enjoyed writting it, you find beautiful things through the spirit who speaks through you.
I hope that only others may garner somthing from it.

• God Bles

 

[ipwnuathalo]

1004, huh? Good for you for counting them all. I’m on 9,567 myself.

 

[rwinner]

To you,

 My name is steave, I often am what you might call odd, I do not follow the picture of the secular dream which I firmly believe many  of you here at CAF do not either.  I often mentally monologue to myself, yet always keep to myself.  I thought I would start posting my monologues, weather anyone reads or not. They would not be read anyway, I hope they cause good for either the readers or myself.

Monologue 1004 : What causes us to lose our childhood excitement?

Hey, Steave.

I know what you are talking about. I went through a period of my life in my late 30’s where
I had a growing sense of what you mean. I believe the psychiatric term is anhedonia,
the inability to take pleasure in things.

I gradually grew out of it, but I have an answer that may be of help to you. I was listening to
some old sermons of Archbishop Fulton Sheen on EWTN, and he said something that
stuck with me. He said, ‘You are bored, because you don’t love anything.’

I think this can be a starting point for you, if you meditate on it. Children are also bored
at times. But their childlike excitement could be because they love things more than
people do: they ‘love’ their toys; they ‘love’ games; etc… They give themselves over to
whatever activity they are doing unreservedly.

HTH!

 

[DCNBILL]

Steave,

It seems to me that the type of attitude that you are describing comes with a sense of freedom. I do not use the word freedom here as would be understood by the secular world as “I can do what ever I want,” but rather in the sense of understanding freedom as giving ones self over to God and placing total trust in Him alone. Young children are care free and full of life because they have trust in their parents and know that their parents love them and will take care of them, they have little to worry about in life so they are free to enjoy it. As we grow older the worries of life often bind us, limiting our freedom to enjoy life. I would suggest that your two friends enjoy life because they have the freedom of knowing the love of God and that God will take care of them.

There is nothing like not having to worry about tomorrow because one knows that God is already there.

 

[anns82]

Very interesting monologue. I would like to take it one step further and identify the happiness we find in childhood to be one which we find in the nature of our being. I say this thinking along the line a timeless sense of happiness. What gave a person reason to smile 100+ years ago? People lived without the luxuries of today, and yet to deny they had reason to laugh and were able to enjoy life would be to deny a part of human nature. I think recognizing that it is through our love of one another; our relationships, that we find joy in life. It is when people look towards modern society or simply within themselves to make them happy that they find something missing.

We are born unaware of what our culture presents as reasons for happiness. Babies are always smiling and giggling (unless they have a poopy diaper or are hungry) simply because they are perceptive to the warmth and comfort of a person holding them. Yet, as we get older we are taught that our career, money, alcohol, sex, etc will make us happy. It is when people realize that the ability to be happy is something God instilled in our nature, and by following His example in loving our neighbors, our relationships with others becomes the natural source of happiness that God intended for us.