People experience highs and lows in their walk with God. Sometimes we climb the mountain, sometimes we walk through the valley of the shadow of death. People go through depressed states. Our feelings overwhelm us. We can sometimes say overconfident things, and we can at other times say overly depressed things. The point is that no matter how distant from God we feel at any point in our lives or how horrible we feel for the many sins of commission and omission we have done in our lives those feelings are not the barometer by which we measure our standing in Christ. If we are truly in Christ and he in us, then our assurance comes from his faithfulness and not from within ourselves.
Did not even Mother Teresa express doubts about God’s existence at the end of her life, and yet the Catholic Church has not seen fit to question the sincerity of her faith. They have even beatified her.
I agree with you. We all go through periods of doubt. To say that we don’t is just being dishonest. I think Wesley was a very honest man. Besides, he was writing to his brother, who was his most trusted confident.
Thank you for thinking about my “comfort.” But next time, note that I really despise Elizabethan English and would much rather prefer my Bible translations in more up to date English, such as the ESV translation.
Me, Wesley, and Mother Teresa. I thank God that you have never felt moments like this. You have been truly gifted a profound measure and degree of God’s abiding presence and overflowing goodness. For that I rejoice.
I never said I wasn’t open to a “TWO-Way love with God.” All I said was that we need not take one moment of despair and spiritual frustration to define someone’s entire spiritual life. Wesley is not God. He is human, and he is entitled to express human emotions, fears and doubts. Who are any of us to judge him for being honest about how he felt at one point in his life? Have we not all felt discouraged or distant from God at some point in our lives?