As I have said elsewhere, I have the greatest respect for those RC’s that I know who are opposed to the Church on various issues and decide to fight to reform the church from within.
First of all, I realize that I have been rather harsh in the way I have presented what I believe. For that, I apologize. I don’t apologize for what I actually do believe.
We of course do not agree that it is anything like “conforming to the HS.” The RCC teaches no such thing. One is to study, pray and make every attempt to conform to the Church’s teachings. If one cannot come to believe in them, one is bound to follow one’s own conscience. One can do that within as I have said, or leave for where one’s conscience dictates is the true teaching. I have done the latter.
This is where we disagree and why I personally believe that people will leave the Truth, the Catholic Church, to go to a church that conforms to
them, rather than the person conforming to the Truth.
Please note I never said this was an easy task in and of itself. But I do believe it is “taking the easy way out.” To be Catholic, to follow and conform to the teachings of the Catholic Church, is not easy. It is terribly difficult. I realize that YOU specifically don’t believe this, generally there are quite a few people who DO take the easy way out. They don’t want to confess or acquiesce to what the Catholic Church teaches about birth control.
It is far from easy as you suggest.
It was perhaps one of the hardest decisions I have ever made and was made with deep sorrow and grief. Perhaps that is why I am slightly irritated when some suggest it is some “easy” path of self indulgence.
Note I clarified what I mean by “easy.” A bit about me as an example. I don’t want children. Ever. I have never wanted them. Do you think that I liked hearing that “Maybe you’re just not called to the vocation of marriage” when I told someone about me wanting to be married but I was not open to the possibility of children? (And this isn’t even considering the rudest of remarks I get from “general society” about me, a woman, not wanting children. You’d think I was Satan himself!) Of course I didn’t like it. But to have a valid marriage I must be open to the possibility of children. That’s NOT easy. It would have been “easy” for me to find a church to go “worship” in that could have been more conforming to MY views. I’m sure there are some out there.
But I never did. Instead, I simply stayed away from the Catholic Church. And I promise you it hurt a lot. It hurt to go to Mass and sit in the pew and not take communion. It’s like going to a banquet and not being able to eat. So instead I just stayed away. I believe, I just
know, that the Catholic Church is the True church of Christ. I just don’t have a strong
biblical “defense.” I never felt I
needed a “defense” to be Catholic. So I know that the decision itself to leave is not
personally easy, it is
easier to leave what appears to be a very tight and rigid system and structure to a far looser structure.
I am aware that there is a small group here who believes in no such thing as personal conscience as such, and if you take that bent, then of course we could never agree. That to me is giving up a precious gift of God and a solomn obligation to serve God.
I certainly don’t take that bent. But I do believe that people’s consciences can be ill formed. I do believe that people can be deluded into thinking they know what the truth is. (I’m not saying YOU, per se, but people in general.) I look at Protestants as being so lost. I’ve said this before, I want to shake some people and say, “Can’t you SEE?? It’s so CLEAR! WAKE UP!” But I have no words to express what
I see as clear. And I do realize that as human beings, with our God given free will and consciences, that people are going to do what they do.
To know, and I mean KNOW in my heart and in my gut (again, I cannot explain why I KNOW, but I do) that the Catholic Church is the Truth, and then accept that other people find the “truth” in a Protestant church would be hypocritical for me. THAT would go against my conscience.
You said before that “my” church (it’s not my church, btw) “orders” me to do things. I can see where you get that. I took it that way too. But what I have found is that it can “order” someone all it wants, it doesn’t mean that person is going to comply. I didn’t comply for twenty years. And look where that got me? I thank God I didn’t die. I’d have surely been lost.
So while today, “my” church may be “ordering” me to do some sort of penance, I’m not doing it because I’m being ordered to. I’m doing it as an expression of my faith. An expression and offering it up to Jesus Christ to remind me what He has done for me. Not because I’m being “ordered” to. I was “ordered” for twenty years. I ate meat on Friday nearly “religiously.” It’s an assumption on your part that people do things because they’re being “ordered” to by “my” church. The same can be said for any other person observing some religious obligation. It’s a person’s intent and motive behind their actions that God knows is true. Sure, some are going through the motions. But I see some people in other churches going through the same motions there too.
I also see some other people going to Protestant churches because they’re more “fun.” Great. All I see is they are giving up the body and blood of Christ that Catholics have in the Eucharist … all for “fun.” Awesome. Or whatever other reason they leave the Catholic church to go to a Protestant church. I know people won’t like hearing that, but I’m not going to apologize for what I believe nor my faith. I WON’T deny Christ like that. I did for twenty years and my conscience, along with my soul, suffered greatly for that.