Do you have a spiritual director who is guiding you in these decisions? It sounds to me like you really need to talk to someone because there is some underlying issue. You don’t need to mention it here but I am genuinely concerned that you are making a grave error. If God asks us to be in the world but not of the world, we cannot seclude ourselves because we are unhappy about something. We have to take action to fight it. Believe me, it would seem a lot easier for us to lock away whatever is bothering us but that’s when the problem spirals out of control. You could be the key to evangelization. I pray that you will reconsider. God bless and Happy Easter!