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I am a heavy smoker. “Perseverance” is a big concept with me right now. I have been diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder.
The Lord is asking me to perseverate over Him instead of smoking, especially.
I am a Catholic only through Baptism of Desire, through the kind words of a priest I corresponded with at one time. I cannot find a church which will accept me as I am ill and do not wash and smoke so much. I am in a new place once again and do not know my way. The priest said that I could ask the Lord for a sacrament such as baptism and He would grant it to me, emphasizing that I should formalize it with a real Church as soon as it became possible for me. This hasn’t happened yet.
But I have fantastic visions of God, of His voice, of clinging to his arm, his breast, his neck, especially “the lovely locks of the Lord”, which are like a lion’s mane to me, falling about me to shield and protect.
I don’t know how to perseverate over the Lord. I know that if I did I could become a true Catholic. But I lived in terrible doubt for so long that it has been enough to me to worship and pray at home as best as I can.
So I add to my other prayer for an increase in faith and help in my Christian walk.



The Lord is asking me to perseverate over Him instead of smoking, especially.
I am a Catholic only through Baptism of Desire, through the kind words of a priest I corresponded with at one time. I cannot find a church which will accept me as I am ill and do not wash and smoke so much. I am in a new place once again and do not know my way. The priest said that I could ask the Lord for a sacrament such as baptism and He would grant it to me, emphasizing that I should formalize it with a real Church as soon as it became possible for me. This hasn’t happened yet.
But I have fantastic visions of God, of His voice, of clinging to his arm, his breast, his neck, especially “the lovely locks of the Lord”, which are like a lion’s mane to me, falling about me to shield and protect.
I don’t know how to perseverate over the Lord. I know that if I did I could become a true Catholic. But I lived in terrible doubt for so long that it has been enough to me to worship and pray at home as best as I can.
So I add to my other prayer for an increase in faith and help in my Christian walk.
