St. Alphone de Ligori wrote about scrupulosity. In fact, he spoke about his own struggles with it. He acknowledged that he was mental condition. St. Alphonse did not know the term OCD or Anxiety Disorder.
He said one thing that is very important. He said that it helped him get started on the right path. Had it not been for this “mental condition” he would not have stopped to ask himself the hard questions that he faced regarding the practice of law. He was a lawyer. He realized that not everything in law and in politics was right. That in itself is not scrupulosity. That’s just common sense.
The scrupulosity came in when he felt compelled to get out of the legal profession as one feels compelled to wash and wash to rid themselves of germs. Had it not been for scrupples, he might have remained in law and been another Thomas More.
However, God had other plans. As we know, “Grace builds on nature.” God used his condition to lead him where he wanted him to be. He entered the seminary and became an Oratorian. From there, he went on to found the Congregation of the Most Holy Redeemer (CSSR), also known as the Redemptorists. They educated and preached to the poor.
But Alphonse’s struggles with scrupulosity did not end when he entered the seminary. He was still scrupulous. The fact that the poor did not have teachers and preachers bothered him to the point that he felt personally responsible. He moved out of the Oratorians and became a consecrated religious That’s how the Holy Spirit called to life the Redemptorists.
Scrupulosity did not stop there. Alphonse was so scrupulous that he was irascible, to the point that his Redemptorist brothers left him and a new congregation was founded, The Congregation of the Blessed Sacrament.
On October 3, 1731, during the Transitus of St. Francis of Assisi, Alphonse had a vision. He saw Christ with Holy Father Francis seated at his right. To Christ’s left, he saw a priest seated. As he looked closely, he realized that that it was him. Christ said to him, “This is he whom I have chosen to be head of My Institute, the Prefect General of a new Congregation of men who shall work for My glory.”
Alphonse was humble and he acknowledge his struggle, but he also trusted the words of Christ. He pushed himself.
Fast forward, the Congregation of the Most Holy Redeemer came to be. In this wonderful priest, bishop and religious, we see how God can use our condition to build the Kingdom and suffering becomes redemptive love. It is no coincidence that the congregation founded by this man who suffered so much from scrupulosity should be named after the suffering Redeemer
Fraternally,
Br. JR, OSF