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invisiblewitnes
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Hi,
I have a certain prayer intention that is more important to me than any other. It is one of those things, where I would do anything, submit to any hardship or cross, to act in a worthy enough manner to give of myself in this matter. And it is also one of those things that were it not to be in God’s will, I would almost rather not live in Heaven. I want to accept God’s will in all things, but this is really the only thing that almost absolutely matters to me, and I will gladly, gratefully, joyfully correspond with and endure any trials, sufferings, hardships, crosses, give anything God asks of me with praise and blessings should this be in His will. I honestly do not want any course that does not conform to God’s wishes, but there seem to be some things that God puts on your heart, and He puts a lot of trials in the way, to really test you, to see if you are seeking His will or your own, if you are being selfless or selfish. I will just say that in asking God for this grace, I have purged myself of a lot of temptations, and come closer to Him. I have prayed more, gone to Mass and the Sacraments more, but also along the way the Devil has really been harassing me, and maybe that is a sign as well. I have had almost every reason to just quit the Church, and I have said “No, it’s God’s Church” And I just want to say that Mary and the Rosary are like chains that bind me to Christ. There have been times when I almost wanted to just tell Jesus I don’t want anything to do with Him anymore (not exactly in those terms. I don’t know how to describe the feeling or thoughts.) but I literally could never even contemplate something like that with Mary. I have just received and sent out too many graces through the Rosary, which I pray more than I do almost any other single activity, for me to even possibly forsake Christ and the Church. When I want to tell Jesus this cross is too heavy for me, and I’m done, I keep praying the Rosary, and I drag myself to daily Mass, and the Blessed Mother keeps inviting me back to her Son.
I went to some Marian service yesterday. Someone was talking to me about someone who receives visions of apparitions of the Blessed Mother. I was saying “I’d probably go blind if I saw her, probably too beautiful for my eyes to see. I’d need those special glasses people wear when looking at a solar eclipse.”
But please pray regarding this most special of my intentions. Rosaries are especially appreciated. And if you want some very special graces, pray Rosaries asking Mary to give you an understanding of Her relationship with the Holy Spirit. Just keep praying Rosaries for that grace and blessing until you get it, if it is God’s will. You will probably cry with joy.
God bless you and thank you for all your prayers.
I have a certain prayer intention that is more important to me than any other. It is one of those things, where I would do anything, submit to any hardship or cross, to act in a worthy enough manner to give of myself in this matter. And it is also one of those things that were it not to be in God’s will, I would almost rather not live in Heaven. I want to accept God’s will in all things, but this is really the only thing that almost absolutely matters to me, and I will gladly, gratefully, joyfully correspond with and endure any trials, sufferings, hardships, crosses, give anything God asks of me with praise and blessings should this be in His will. I honestly do not want any course that does not conform to God’s wishes, but there seem to be some things that God puts on your heart, and He puts a lot of trials in the way, to really test you, to see if you are seeking His will or your own, if you are being selfless or selfish. I will just say that in asking God for this grace, I have purged myself of a lot of temptations, and come closer to Him. I have prayed more, gone to Mass and the Sacraments more, but also along the way the Devil has really been harassing me, and maybe that is a sign as well. I have had almost every reason to just quit the Church, and I have said “No, it’s God’s Church” And I just want to say that Mary and the Rosary are like chains that bind me to Christ. There have been times when I almost wanted to just tell Jesus I don’t want anything to do with Him anymore (not exactly in those terms. I don’t know how to describe the feeling or thoughts.) but I literally could never even contemplate something like that with Mary. I have just received and sent out too many graces through the Rosary, which I pray more than I do almost any other single activity, for me to even possibly forsake Christ and the Church. When I want to tell Jesus this cross is too heavy for me, and I’m done, I keep praying the Rosary, and I drag myself to daily Mass, and the Blessed Mother keeps inviting me back to her Son.
I went to some Marian service yesterday. Someone was talking to me about someone who receives visions of apparitions of the Blessed Mother. I was saying “I’d probably go blind if I saw her, probably too beautiful for my eyes to see. I’d need those special glasses people wear when looking at a solar eclipse.”
But please pray regarding this most special of my intentions. Rosaries are especially appreciated. And if you want some very special graces, pray Rosaries asking Mary to give you an understanding of Her relationship with the Holy Spirit. Just keep praying Rosaries for that grace and blessing until you get it, if it is God’s will. You will probably cry with joy.
God bless you and thank you for all your prayers.
