Why would this god blow himself up rather than create?
Well when I say blow up I don’t mean like a bomb blowing stuff up, I mean like the first moments of the universe after the Big Bang, when matter came to be. So it is creation, but not in a “I’m going to make a planet suitable for life and put the sun over there and the moon over there” kind of way. I mean it in a rapid expansion kind of way. Does that make sense?
According to one pandeist, “Pandeism proposes that our Creator preceded our Universe, and that it designed and created our Universe; the method of Creation was becoming.”
I cannot support or defend the “designed and created” part of that statement, because it signifies intelligence IOW is anthropomorpic. But I do find the idea of “the method of creation was becoming” somewhat agreeable.
Also this god would be impotent, dead even.
Yes that is the point. It is almost, (not quite) like positive atheism only instead of saying “God doesn’t exist” it says “God doesn’t exist anymore.”
Please note I am kind of making this up as I go along. A thought experiment you might say, as opposed to a statement of my beliefs. Also note that I don’t think a pandeist would agree with the statement “God doesn’t exist anymore.” I am just sort of using the definition of pandeism as inspiration.
This god also does not appear infinite.
Unless the god is in a state of being then the question “who created this god” can arise, or an infinite regress.
I suppose.
I don’t mean that your god is impossible, just that it does not show it self more rational.
The extent that I find actual pandeism or my twisted version of pandeism more rational is because 1) it doesn’t have that “imaginary powerful human-like deity” vibe to it that I get from theism and 2) it is basically compatible with naturalism (does not bring supernatural explanations into the mix).
You said correctly that we can not know all things. At some point, due to lack of suitable conclusive proof we -]have to/-] make a rational decision…“which possibility is more rational?”
We absolutely do not have to.

It can be interesting to discuss but one is perfectly entitled to say “I have no freaking clue” or “both of those arguments have merit but they both have their flaws, therefore I cannot adopt either one.”
Speaking for myself, I find mono- and polytheism to be too much of a cultural and human phenomenon to be true and just plain old unbelievable. I don’t really understand the point of pantheism and it lacks explanatory power. God concepts such as Wakan Tanka and Brahman elude me. Deism is more believable than regular theism but still suffers from being a human projection. Pandeism has merits but it still posits a divinity of sorts and I do not accept that.
So I am an agnostic atheist. I do not believe any of it.
I can lead you to rationally believe that a God exists, but I cannot show Him to you. However we are all invited to know Him personally. He knocks on all our hearts, all we have to do is willingly let Him in. He is yours if you want Him. You will not find him in a telescope or a science book because He is at the front door of your heart at this very moment asking you to let Him in.
He does not knock on my heart. I am perfectly content in my disbelief.

I don’t have a spiritual side. Never have.
What do you think of that line, “The method of Creation was becoming.” A unique concept, don’t you think?