God bless all of you for your prayers, if it is not too much to ask, please continue to pray, it really has given me this soothing inner peace that I so needed.
My mother has asked me today, to move to Puerto Rico to help care for her. It broke my heart because it sounded like a cry fo help. My sister is a teacher and has to go to work, leaving her bedridden and alone all day, she doesn’t have much of a choice. Some family members come during the day to feed her, but people have their own responsabilities, they cannot be there all day. She has sunk into such a depression that she just sits there looking at he wall or sleeping all day. She no longer reads, listen to the radio or any kind of entertainment. This was a woman that was considered the life or backbone of the whole family, even my fathers nieces and nephews considered her the favorite aunt. Now shes like a little ghost fading away from us.
My love and devotion for her are bigger than my anxiety issues. I praise the Lord today for not listening to me when I would pray for Him to give me children of my own. Now I can devote all my time to my husband and her, and not worry about anything else. God bless this saint of a husband that I have, he is willing to make this move reguardless that it will be a huge financial burden on us. Moving to Puerto Rico has become very expensive and we are no longer in the military, so this one is on us my siblings cannot help.
Brothers and sisters in Christ please help me with your prayers, that I can pull this financial issue through and go and be by my mothers’ side. I am scared to the bone and this could mean financial sacrifice. But this woman spent her life working behind a sewing machine in a low paying factory, to give us what we needed and then some. When I was in high school, one morning as she left for work, I told her that I had no lunch money and when she opened her wallet there were only two dollars. Exactly what I needed for lunch, but it meant she would go without food all day. She did not hesitate to give me the money, my heart sank and we argued for a few minutes there, because I did not want to go to school, so that she could have lunch. At the end she pulled rank on me, ordered me to take the money and go to school. It was hard to swallow that slice of pizza, if I ate it, I felt like a parasite, but if I didn’t then her sacrifice would have meant nothing. So it is time to pay her back for that lunch and countless more. I want to care for her and my husband in a way that I don’t have the time or the energy to feel anxiety. I owe it to my Christ and them, but it is easier said than done. Please pray that I can pull this expensive move off and that she hangs in there until I can be by her side and have the satisfaction to care for her like I once did for my dad. So what if I have to live on guavas and mangos later right?
Maybe I’ll start my own organic garden and be healthier
I think using my lame sense of humor will help me get through this one. What the heck, like a soldier all or nothing! Right? My grandparents survived there, dead poor, with a bunch of kids, no electricity and no running water. So God Almighty help me and may all of your prayers sustain me. Lets grab this one by the tail, I only have one mother and one opportunity to grant her a wish that really matters.
Praying for you and your mother.