God just seems so far away. That’s all.
He isn’t far away. He’s merely not letting you feel/sense his presence. When God does that he is prompting you to seek him all the more. A meditative reading of the Song of Songs with this in mind might help you see this. The pivotal verses are:
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[1] Upon my bed by night
I sought him whom my soul loves;
I sought him, but found him not;
I called him, but he gave no answer.
[2] “I will rise now and go about the city,
in the streets and in the squares;
I will seek him whom my soul loves.”
I sought him, but found him not.
[3] The watchmen found me,
as they went about in the city.
“Have you seen him whom my soul loves?”
[4] Scarcely had I passed them,
when I found him whom my soul loves.
I held him, and would not let him go
until I had brought him into my mother’s house,
and into the chamber of her that conceived me.
Think of the bride as your soul, for all souls are feminine/receivers within the context of God’s love and grace. I hope this helps you.
