Need a Listener/Advice

[Flavius_Aetius]

Hello, I supose some background for my current situaton. As of now I still feel misanthrope for all but my biological family. I feel that friendships seem majorily emotionally damaging to a person, and that everyone is only looking out for themselves. I admit to hating myself with a extreme passion, and even if I take out the guilt of sin I still have little love for myself. Not only that but emotion wise I feel I’m naturally at a content melencholy and that happiness is this rare emotion that comes out in frequent short bursts. I can litterally time myself feeling joy for two seconds and then reverting back to this depressed state.

As of now I feel more inclined to not put my faith in ressurections, and most of the basic tenents of faith required to be a theist, yet I have this selfish desire to be a theist because to not believe in a god feels sterile. As if instead of being given a 100 piece puzzle to work on with a reward at the end you have a one piece puzzle and don’t even get the satisfaction of completing something.

 

[ChrisCrop]

ok, i read your post. So you are depressed. Seek a doctor. ASAP.

 

[magdelaine1173]

Hello, I supose some background for my current situaton. As of now I still feel misanthrope for all but my biological family. I feel that friendships seem majorily emotionally damaging to a person, and that everyone is only looking out for themselves. I admit to hating myself with a extreme passion, and even if I take out the guilt of sin I still have little love for myself. Not only that but emotion wise I feel I’m naturally at a content melencholy and that happiness is this rare emotion that comes out in frequent short bursts. I can litterally time myself feeling joy for two seconds and then reverting back to this depressed state.

As of now I feel more inclined to not put my faith in ressurections, and most of the basic tenents of faith required to be a theist, yet I have this selfish desire to be a theist because to not believe in a god feels sterile. As if instead of being given a 100 piece puzzle to work on with a reward at the end you have a one piece puzzle and don’t even get the satisfaction of completing something.

First off friendships are supposed to feel joyous and fulfilling. Second hating ones self and feeling empty inside are feelings of depression and from what I can understand from your post you may be bipolar. Mood swings of happiness one moment and self hatred and sadness the next are hallmark symptoms of bipolar depression. You need to go to the hospital right away if you feel suicidal, but if not make an appointment with your pcp right away. So you can talk to him/hr asap. Have a friend drive you to the hospital or the doctor’s office soon.
We are willing to listen, but remember we can’t cousel you like a doctor can. You need a psychiatrist or therapist who can prescribe meds and give you help so you do not feel so bad. I hope things improve for you.
God’s Peace

 

[Edward_H]

First off friendships are supposed to feel joyous and fulfilling. Second hating ones self and feeling empty inside are feelings of depression and from what I can understand from your post you may be bipolar. Mood swings of happiness one moment and self hatred and sadness the next are hallmark symptoms of bipolar depression. You need to go to the hospital right away if you feel suicidal, but if not make an appointment with your pcp right away. So you can talk to him/hr asap. Have a friend drive you to the hospital or the doctor’s office soon.
We are willing to listen, but remember we can’t cousel you like a doctor can. You need a psychiatrist or therapist who can prescribe meds and give you help so you do not feel so bad. I hope things improve for you.
God’s Peace

Clean up your room with a lot of extra energy…then using that momentum get busy helping others. Volunteer for a day or two a week of volunteer work. Hands on…packing lunches, delivering food, helping old ladies into the doctors’ offices.

Get busy and stop thinking about yourself. God needs your hands somewhere.

All love. And prayers tonight. But get busy engaging in charity somewhere.

 

[Flavius_Aetius]

Thanks for the responses, I probably should see a doctor about this. I don’t think I’m bipolar though since I’ve never experienced a manic level of creativity/energy; of course maybe I have without knowing it. In any case the biggest problem about doing this is first family; who I’m sure will all across be disappointed if I had to start taking medication just to be happy. Then there is myself personally, because I don’t want to feel this artificial happiness brought on by a drug. Quite honestly its almost a cycle because I don’t want the energy that comes from positive feelings because I’m not doing anything of importance to the community. With that said thanks to those who posted here; it’s dissappointing to see that most likely this is all beyond just emotional problems, but it’s better to acknowledge something may be wrong than be in denial about it.

 

[solomonkane]

Then there is myself personally, because I don’t want to feel this artificial happiness brought on by a drug. With that said thanks to those who posted here; it’s dissappointing to see that most likely this is all beyond just emotional problems, but it’s better to acknowledge something may be wrong than be in denial about it.

Flavius, It’s not a matter of the drug(s) bringing you artificial happiness, it’s about you having a chemical imbalance that the drugs will RESTORE to your natural state. My wife suffers depression that went undiagnosed for about a year. We were frantic as I saw the most precious person in my life become someone I hardly knew. Once it was correctly diagnosed, then with a combination of psychiatric assitance and drugs, she is back to the (almost) normal happy woman I married.

But I don’t propose to give medical advice, get yourself to a doctor; see what they think.

God Bless

 

[Edward_H]

Thanks for the responses, I probably should see a doctor about this. I don’t think I’m bipolar though since I’ve never experienced a manic level of creativity/energy; of course maybe I have without knowing it. In any case the biggest problem about doing this is first family; who I’m sure will all across be disappointed if I had to start taking medication just to be happy. Then there is myself personally, because I don’t want to feel this artificial happiness brought on by a drug. Quite honestly its almost a cycle because I don’t want the energy that comes from positive feelings because I’m not doing anything of importance to the community. With that said thanks to those who posted here; it’s dissappointing to see that most likely this is all beyond just emotional problems, but it’s better to acknowledge something may be wrong than be in denial about it.

Maybe it’s a combination of things. I think our society is way over medicated and therapied. But that’s just my bad opinion. We think happiness either comes from a bottle, pills in a bottle, or worse, has to be achieved first in order to “be ok” (get happy then I can live). Something just doesn’t ring true with these ideas. We need to serve, to struggle, to deny ourselves a bit, generously with some abandonment, and then this gives the Holy Spirit an opening to help us. This to me is true…I’ve seen generous parents - who give and give and give - and who in the end are actually tired but happier. The saints are truly happy people…and all had deep prayer lives, and great lives of giving. Squeezed out like lemons.

God Bless.

 

[Father_La_Fleur]

Dear Friend,

What you describe seems to be very deep seeded dissatisfaction with your life according to your expectations…since you see all turning to dust and shadows in the wind-All is dissapointment for you it seems. There is a problem you need to discuss with a Priest and a Doctor who will refer you to the right instrument of God. One kind of help does not exclude the other. Psychology, Counselling and Sacraments, and Spiritual Direction work hand in hand if well harmonized in truth. Medication is a means of being able to control your thoughts and not be overwhelmed by feelings. It is never a solution, it enables us to think clearly if need be. It may not be necessary but only a professsional assessment can tell you. I am praying for you.

Fr. Dominic La Fleur

 

[magdelaine1173]

Dear Friend,

What you describe seems to be very deep seeded dissatisfaction with your life according to your expectations…since you see all turning to dust and shadows in the wind-All is dissapointment for you it seems. There is a problem you need to discuss with a Priest and a Doctor who will refer you to the right instrument of God. One kind of help does not exclude the other. Psychology, Counselling and Sacraments, and Spiritual Direction work hand in hand if well harmonized in truth. Medication is a means of being able to control your thoughts and not be overwhelmed by feelings. It is never a solution, it enables us to think clearly if need be. It may not be necessary but only a professsional assessment can tell you. I am praying for you.

Fr. Dominic La Fleur

Fr. La Fleur and other posters here are correct. All help, whether from medications, counseling -spiritual, emotional,sacramental, You cannot neglect them, or you will feel lost and discouraged and outright depressed. A doctor AND priest should be seeing you asap. I hope you feel better soon. We are praying for your health and peace of mind.
PRAYER TO
SAINT GERARD MAJELLA
(For Help And Healing)
St. Gerard, you lived your life among people
who asked for your prayers and blessings
in the many concerns of their lives.
In your kindness you presented their needs to Jesus
and obtained an answer to their prayers.
Help all those who call upon your intercession
to experience the healing presence of Christ within them.
Our confidence is strengthened by your words of encouragement,
“Trust with lively faith that you will receive everything from God.”
Be a friend to us, St. Gerard,
and help us to walk in the light of Christ.
Following your example,
may our lives proclaim the love and mercy of Jesus in all our actions.

Amen.