I would like to thank all of you for all your prayers. They certainly were not in vain. Mom died on the 26th day of December 2008 and tomorrow a year ago she was buried. I would like to share the following journey that I had with Jesus with you these past few days.
I have had many conversations, per say, with Jesus about mom these last few days and He has made me understand that, to put it simply, that my mind, my head, has relinquished her to Him, but my heart has not. Many things have been said. But He has reminded me that mom is no longer of this earth that she is with Him, that her body was buried, but she was not. The more I think about what was said, the more I can see where this is actually the problem. I don’t think I would have ever thought about it in these terms, if divine intervention had not enlightened me. I think it is very true, my head knows, but my heart won’t let her go to Him. The base fact is as He expressed it, until I reach the point where I can relinquish her to His care, I will not have peace. This has nothing to do with forgetting her or feeling sad at her passing. It just means that until I reach the point where I can really, in my heart, hand her over to His eternal care. I am going to be a mess. My head and my heart have to be in sinc. I don’t know if this makes sense to you, but I understand. At least He has let me know what I have to do. I would have never figured it out by myself in these terms in which He put it.
Also, He has enlightened me to remember that our loved ones and friends do not belong to us, as we so much take that for fact, they (we) belong to Him before they came, while they are here and until He decides to bring them home. He shares these loved one with us. He expects us to love them, provided for them, learn from them and all the good things that He intends each of us to do with family and friends. However, when in His time, he also expects us out of Love for Him and them to relinquish them to His eternal care. This is a reminder that everything belongs to Him and that we must love Him above everything, even our loved one.
I think as a result of all our prayers, tomorrow will be different than it would have been.
God Bless Everyone and a Wonderful New Year.