God Bless you.
Peace and warm regards.
Personally, I have found my main struggle, because of my childhood,
was too much emotional ‘neediness.’ I would get into relationships that
I wasn’t prepared for to start. And I wouldn’t discern with The Lord, His Word,
and knowledgeable persons in The Lord as to whether or not deepen those
relationships. It was a life long roller coaster that hurt so many.
Last Autumn, (I’d rather not get into any details as to why), under the advise
of Clergy, devout Church leaders, and many others; I finally separated from my wife.
Under counsel of a Priest and a Pastoral Assistant Nun, we started with
a Justice of The Peace Marriage. I was surprise when The Judge said,
“what God has joined together, let no one put asunder.” The only thing is,
that my strong emotional attachment to her — didn’t let me see that our
relationship was crumbling, especially with regards to her non-practicing
Christian family members. My wife already had reverted to very rarely
attending Church. Like an idiot of all idiots, I emotionally rationalized that
getting married would solve out problems. No, they decidedly got worse.
While we have no children together; her family members resentments toward
me, left me helpless to protect her children from certain things — especially
with them being taught to disrespect me. It was horrendous, and heartbreaking,
especially for the children. Over last summer I weaned the children of myself,
then in the Autumn, sold the house, and we live separately. After another idiot
move to visit one another behaving like a married couple together — forming
an extremely lack of prudence emotional tie, again — I finally prayed enough,
with firm purpose of amendment to listen & heed The Holy Spirit, through prayer,
The Church, and praying for strength to stand firm.
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But while going through those things… praying for a clear answer… emotional anguishing
situations developing year after year — it was extremely difficult to see the light at the
end of the tunnel. But now the joy of The Lord is my strength. The Lord has given
me more peace than I have ever known. I live my life for the Gospel and helping others.
And pray a personal ‘rule’ every day — which gives consolation like I’ve never known.
God Bless you.