Need to come back to God

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Hi šŸ™‚

Iā€™m sorry I asked for prayers here before, but Iā€™m really struggling right now šŸ˜¦

I feel that I am really far from Godā€¦ I donā€™t mean that I just donā€™t feel Him here, - I mean I think I need to repent of my sins, but Iā€™m having difficulty even figuring out what they are or feeling sorry for them. Iā€™m really afraid that I am lost and I donā€™t know how to come back. This has been going on for such a long time. I havenā€™t even been able to receive the Eucharist for several months, due to this. Iā€™ve been to Confession during this time, but I know I need to go againā€¦ Iā€™m still struggling with something I was going through before, - that is not knowing if I should be Catholic or Orthodox. At different points, I felt called to either one church or the other, - and sometimes I accepted them, and other times i considered them to be temptations. Iā€™m afraid that I rejected the true calling from God but I canā€™t figure out what it is. All these doubts and fears are keeping me very far from God.

Please pray that I would find a way to come back to Him and repent of all my sins, and see the truth šŸ˜¦ I believe that my salvation depends on thisā€¦ I feel so lost. Sometimes I feel like Heā€™s giving me an answer, but I canā€™t figure out what it is (in my mind), and I canā€™t seem to accept itā€¦ during Mass yesterday, I felt that God was calling me closer to Himself, and I almost opened up to Him, but it didnā€™t happen - I dont know whyā€¦ itā€™s like I just couldnā€™t.

Please pray for God to have mercy on meā€¦ I can hardly believe thereā€™s still mercy for me. Iā€™m afraid of being unable to repent, Iā€™m afraid that Iā€™ve closed myself up to Him. Most of the time I feel like Iā€™m going to hell and itā€™s so horrible. Iā€™ve been going through this for monthsā€¦ I really need Godā€™s help šŸ˜¦

Thank you!!
 
Praying that you meet with a good, holy Catholic priest to help you understand that you are in the right church and are not beyond Godā€™s mercy. God established the Catholic Church and His greatest attribute is His Mercy and He will be merciful with youā€¦just stay safe in the bosom of His Church. I pray you meet with a good, holy Catholic priest and tell him just what you have said in your post. Heā€™ll be able to help you know your sins, and when you know your sins youā€™ll be able to feel sorry for them. Praying that you pray frequently the prayer: Jesus I trust in youā€¦until the words take on a depth of meaning and you can free yourself from your fear of Him. May you abandon yourself to Godā€™s Merciful Love fully confident in His Goodness, Mercy, and Providence. Amen.
 
Lord please direct her the simple way. You spoke with directness and authority. You walked a faithful and direct path. Help Monica to follow You, and to no longer reject the Bread of Life.

Jesus says, ā€œI tell you solemnly, anyone who does not welcome the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.ā€ [Luke18: 17]

Therese of Lisieux elucidates how to live as child before God. ā€œThe only way to advance rapidly in the path of love is to always remain very littleā€ ā€œā€˜Remaining littleā€™ meansā€”to recognise ones nothingness, to await everything from the goodness of God, to avoid being much troubled at our faults; finally, not to be worried about amassing spiritual riches.ā€

ā€œThere is but one means of compelling God not to judge us, and it isā€”to appear before Him empty-handedā€¦spend your treasures as you gain themā€¦All my earnings [merits] are spent immediately on the ransom of soulsā€¦Our Lord is justice Himself, and if He does not judge our good actions, neither will He judge our bad ones.ā€

In response to a novice who was discouraged by her faults, Therese said, ā€œYou make me think of a little child that is learning to stand but does not know how to walk. In his desire to reach to top of the stairs to find his mother, he lifts his little foot to climb the first step. It is all in vain, and at each renewed effort he falls.ā€

ā€œWell, be like that little child. Always keep lifting your foot to climb the ladder of holiness, and do not imagine that you can mount even the first step. All God asks of you is good will. From the top of the ladder, He looks lovingly upon you, and soon, touched by your fruitful efforts, He will Himself come down, and taking you in His arms, will carry you to His Kingdom never again to leave Him. But should you cease to raise your foot, you will be left for long on the earth.ā€

To another, Therese said, ā€œYou want to climb the mountain, whereas God wishes you to descend it. He is awaiting you in the valley of humility.ā€ ā€œIt seems to me that humility is truth (honesty).ā€
 
Monica4316 said:
Hi šŸ™‚

Iā€™m sorry I asked for prayers here before, but Iā€™m really struggling right now šŸ˜¦

I feel that I am really far from Godā€¦ I donā€™t mean that I just donā€™t feel Him here, - I mean I think I need to repent of my sins, but Iā€™m having difficulty even figuring out what they are or feeling sorry for them. Iā€™m really afraid that I am lost and I donā€™t know how to come back. This has been going on for such a long time. I havenā€™t even been able to receive the Eucharist for several months, due to this. Iā€™ve been to Confession during this time, but I know I need to go againā€¦ Iā€™m still struggling with something I was going through before, - that is not knowing if I should be Catholic or Orthodox. At different points, I felt called to either one church or the other, - and sometimes I accepted them, and other times i considered them to be temptations. Iā€™m afraid that I rejected the true calling from God but I canā€™t figure out what it is. All these doubts and fears are keeping me very far from God.

Please pray that I would find a way to come back to Him and repent of all my sins, and see the truth šŸ˜¦ I believe that my salvation depends on thisā€¦ I feel so lost. Sometimes I feel like Heā€™s giving me an answer, but I canā€™t figure out what it is (in my mind), and I canā€™t seem to accept itā€¦ during Mass yesterday, I felt that God was calling me closer to Himself, and I almost opened up to Him, but it didnā€™t happen - I dont know whyā€¦ itā€™s like I just couldnā€™t.

Please pray for God to have mercy on meā€¦ I can hardly believe thereā€™s still mercy for me. Iā€™m afraid of being unable to repent, Iā€™m afraid that Iā€™ve closed myself up to Him. Most of the time I feel like Iā€™m going to hell and itā€™s so horrible. Iā€™ve been going through this for monthsā€¦ I really need Godā€™s help šŸ˜¦

Thank you!!
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Hello Monica. I donā€™t know exactly how you feel but I believe I have felt similarly before. Praying for your intentions:

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

May God grant you the grace that you need to speak to a priest or to do whatever it is you feel you need to do. Amen.
 
Praying for you Monicaā€¦:gopray:

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us.
 
Thank you so much for the responses and the prayers :hug1:

Trishie, that quote by St Therese about the little child and the ladder really helped meā€¦ I often feel like that, that I am trying to hard and nothing is happening, but I need God to just make it happen. I know He can accomplish with His grace, in a moment, what I would never be able to do.

I think one of the ways the enemy really attacks me is temptation to distrust. I need to trust God that He is able to help me, and also that He is all goodness and that He wants toā€¦ that if I trust Him, He will reply; - I am sometimes afraid that my sins are so great, and my repentance so small, and that I have so much self will, - that I am rejecting Him in my heartā€¦ and that even if I trust Him, that He would not come. I think I need to just believe that if I trust Him, - He will take me out of this condition and help me to do whatever needs to be done to be reconciled fully with Him. Itā€™s so scary living this way though. Things used to be so different.

Thank you once more! Please keep on praying for meā€¦

God bless šŸ™‚
 
Hi Monica. Do you have a devotion to the Divine Mercy of Jesus? Hereā€™s information about it from EWTN if youā€™re interested:

ewtn.com/devotionals/mercy/backgr.htm

I hope that you like this. I really love the Feast of Divine Mercy and I love the Divine Mercy Chaplet. šŸ™‚

Saint Faustina is such an amazing saint. šŸ™‚
 
PATER NOSTER,
qui es in caelis,
sanctificetur nomen tuum.
Adveniat regnum tuum.
Fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo et in terra.
Panem nostrum quotidianum da nobis hodie,
et dimitte nobis debita nostra
sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris.
Et ne nos inducas in tentationem,
sed libera nos a malo. Amen.
 
***Praying for you Monicaā€¦

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us.***
 
Lord, please grant peace in Monicaā€™s heart as she places her trust in You-

Hail Mary, full of grace,
the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now, and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning,
is now, and ever shall be,
world without end.
Amen.
 
Thank you so much everyone.

I have just spent an hour prayingā€¦ and Iā€™m so afraid for my soul because I donā€™t see anything happening. I feel that Iā€™m unable to receive Godā€™s mercy because of unrepentance, and I am praying for repentance and trying so hard to repent, but itā€™s not really happeningā€¦ nor am I able to discern if my sin was in rejecting Catholicism, or in rejecting Orthodoxy, and what church I should be in. Im soo lostā€¦ Iā€™m afraid that without repentance, I would never be able to receive Godā€™s mercy, and would go to hell šŸ˜¦ I know that I must have sinned in one of those cases, because in one of the cases, God was showing me to be Catholic/Orthodox, but I thought it wasnā€™t him, but a demon, and rejected His voice. Iā€™m afraid taht I rejected Him in such a way that I would never be ABLE to repent.

Please help me with your prayersā€¦ I prayed the Divine Mercy chaple, the 7 Sorrows Rosary, and I prayed to Our Lady, St Padre Pio, and my Guardian Angelā€¦ and still Iā€™m not able to open up to God, I feel like my soul is closed towards Him, though I am trying so hardā€¦ all that I am asking for is repentance for my sins and knowledge of them, so that i can accept Godā€™s mercy, and then go to Confession and Communion in the true Church. šŸ˜¦
 
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women and
blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
now and at the hour of our death. Amen.
 
***Praying for you Monicaā€¦

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us.***
 
Praying that you have a devotion to Our Lady of Sorrows. Such a devotion is well known to bring about repentance. I pray that you pray the Chaplet of the Seven Sorrows of the BVM every day, as it will help you gain repentance and there are excellent promises associated with praying it. Amen.
 
**Praying for you Monicaā€¦

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us.**
 
Thank you so much everyone šŸ™‚

Ready, - I love the devotion to Our Lady of Sorrows. I donā€™t pray the chaplet every day but I want to šŸ™‚

well I have some good news, yesterday I was able to see one of my major sins and I completed repented of it and God gave me contritionā€¦ I felt soo much better afterwards and like I can trust in HIs mercy again. I still have a lot to work out but I hope with prayer Iā€™ll get there. Iā€™m also trying to figure out the whole Catholic/Orthodox thing but Iā€™ll keep praying about that too. I hope I donā€™t make a mistake.

thanks again! šŸ™‚ God bless.
 
***Praying for you Monicaā€¦

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us.***
 
***Praying for you Monicaā€¦

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us sinners now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.

St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us.***
 
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