It’s not looking too good, to be honest. I thought I understood when someone told me that God tests people in different ways, and that His tests are “tailored” to the individual. That He doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle.
I’ve been praying a lot for this to go through. I feel as though I have seen signs and connections that let me know it will, but I don’t consider myself wise enough to discern such things, nor do I consider myself worthy enough to be helped in this regard.
I feel like if this doesn’t go through, my Faith will be destroyed, and I am scared of that. I have dealt with the death of loved ones, but that only resolved to strengthen me. I’m not sure why this is hitting me particularly hard. I am afraid of losing my Faith in the power of prayer.
Dear PillarofClay,
Never lose your faith in God. The trials and tribulations we go through will always pass, and our dear Lord is there with us during these trying times. The devil loves nothing better than to “test” our love for God, and God allows this to happen. How easy it is to say we can love someone who gives us things, but what a test to love someone for who they are and not for what they can give to us. God has already given us the greatest gift ever: Dying for us upon the cross in order to redeem us and give us the gift of salvation: Life ever after in heaven.
Read the Book of Job for inspiration! I’ve always liked that Old Testament story.
You can pray to the Patron Saints of Education:
edocere.org/patron_saints.htm
SAINT THOMAS AQUINAS
1225 (or 1227?) to 1274
Philosopher, theologian, doctor of the Church (the Angelic Doctor), patron of Catholic universities, colleges, and schools
SAINT JOHN BOSCO
1815 to 1888
Founder of the Salesian Society (the Oratory), renowned for his manner of educating boys, patron of youth and editors…
SAINT FRANCIS DE SALES
1567 to 1622
Doctor of the Church, renowned preacher, prolific author, and specially devoted to the Christian and technical education of the children of the poorer classes
SAINT JOHN BAPTIST DE LA SALLE
1651 to 1719
Founder of the Christian Brothers, educational reformer, and father of modern pedagogy
May God bless you with attaining your goals according to His will, and I pray that you will accept with grace and comfort that God’s timing is not always our timing. I pray that you will come to accept that God knows best and that you will have the patience to wait if it does not happen “now” for your college entrance. Even if it takes years, don’t give up: persevere with trust in the Lord. Amen.
Blessings,
CEM
P.S. Don’t get discouraged and give up no matter what: I only got to go to a college after having my five children and waiting until the last one was old enough that I could spend the time and effort studying, and I did it!!