Sounds like you are still searching.
The involvement with the Reform Jewish community actually did begin with searching for a brief period many years ago but has continued through music. My husband has been singing with the choir at the local Reform temple for over a decade now. As he pointed out, unfortunately the Neopagan community is not where Judaism or Christianity are in terms of a body of beautiful music. He loves the music and enjoys the challenges of singing for a very good cantor. I have found the services I have attended very beautiful and actually like a lot of the theology and actions that I see stemming from it. If it weren’t for the whole monotheistic issue…
We have met a lot of great folks through this involvement and continue to read a lot about what is going on the Jewish community, mostly Reform but some others as well. We both enjoy comparative theology, and have done a good bit of study in a variety of religions, though I will freely admit my husband is more versed in this than I.
**According to the Laws of the First Premise, once one accepts the notion that there are many Gods “on faith”, one might, by circular reasoning, begin to see evidence of multiple Gods everywhere. It might even seem obvious to the paganist believer – but they will probably come off as a fruit cake to someone who believes there is only one God. **
From this perspective I think the actual first premise in such an argument is that one is open to the idea that there is something in the universe that is beyond humanity. In this area we all come off as fruitcakes to the atheist and we wonder how the atheist can
not see the evidence that we do. Once that premise is accepted, it becomes for me a matter of which path most closely matches my experiences of this “something.”
I will certainly agree that we all interpret the world through the lens of our own experiences. Those experiences are also shaped by our culture, background, etc. Usually we will see what we are conditioned to see. I think a large part of it has to do with what we allow ourselves to be open to experiencing.
For me it has been much like when I was pregnant. Before that, I never paid attention to or really noticed/registered pregnant women, women with small babies, etc. Obviously I saw they were there (didn’t walk over top of them

) but they didn’t really register in my view of the makeup of my experience. If asked point blank, I might have said, yes, I
think I saw a pregnant woman/woman with baby at the mall today. Once I became pregnant (actually once we decided to start trying), suddenly pregnant women were
everywhere! It seemed like every second woman I saw was pregnant or had a baby. There were “suddenly” innumerable stories in the paper or movies that included them. Seven years later, it isn’t as overwhelming a number as it seemed initially, but I remain more aware of the variety of people in my environment. That initial shift in perspective brought to my attention that my perception was skewed and I began to notice a wider variety of folks.
Did the objective number of pregnant women or women who had babies change? I really doubt we had a huge fertility boom at that exact instant. Did my perception change the world and actually suddenly create these women and their children where they had not been before? No. It was rather that my attention had become attuned to that (name removed by moderator)ut, so it actually registered with me. My perception of the world as a place in which there were a few occasional pregnant women was altered to more closely match the reality of how many there actually were.
You are right. Once I became open to the possibility that there could be multiple forces at work in the universe, I did begin to see evidence of it, usually in ways I had not registered before. Polytheism most closely matches the way in which I experience reality, without having to make the contortionist arguments I was having to make to explain that experience to myself in terms of monotheism (specifically in terms of Christian monotheism).
I had spent decades trying to fit my experiences of reality into the Christian monotheistic mold, moving through multiple forms of Christianity (though admittedly not formally Catholic–I have spent a great deal of time talking over such issues with friends who are Catholic, both born and converts, and reading some material from Catholic writers). It–orthodox (small “o”) Christianity–never adequately explained my experiences.
I think we can safely say that you believe there are more than one God and see evidence for this. I believe there is only one God, that Jesus is God, and I see evidence for my faith.
Yes, I think we can safely say that.
