Thank you all for your comments. They have been helpful.
I have a few responses, and there are a few ideas I would like to expand upon just a little.
Thanks for the RCIA keyword. I have made some enquiries locally and hope to join an RCIA program soon.
Thank you also for the names of various authors whom I might look up or read. I suppose I could pray that they are as easy to read as a Louis L’Amour novel, but what’s the point? Some of these tomes seem more suitable for hand-to-hand combat than reading. I will be grateful if they are less thick, literally and metaphorically, than Hegel or Marx.
With respect to the dangers of Augustinian thought, I have heard it said here and elsewhere that Luther was very much influenced by Augustine. I have never heard it said elsewhere that Nietzsche was, so if anyone knows a source for that I will be horribly disappointed to hear about it. I thought I’d come up with that on my own.
I am well aware that Augustine can be dangerous. If you’re looking for a stick to beat someone with, then Augustine’s work is a well equipped golf bag. Putter to nine-iron, it’s all there. Throw in some Stirner and a bit of Mr. “I am dynamite” and you’ve got a one-man wrecking crew. Too bad I’m not in the wrecking business.
I have not read Luther and I don’t know what he might have taken from Augustine. Luther lived at a time when the Church was powerful, and everyone was a Christian. If he did so, then he used Augustine’s arguments
against the Church, with all too predictable results. We live at a time when the western world is divided between Christian and Pagan and seems on the verge of monetary if not social collapse. Many pagans I meet are decidedly Christian and many Christians seem like pagans. Confusion reigns. I love Augustine not only because he showed me the cause and cure of the madness I saw in modernity, but because his task is also my own: first to convince my friends and family that becoming a Christian isn’t itself an act of madness; second to argue for Christianity (against paganism) both politically and theologically. Augustine’s work is dangerous and therefore useless to myself and others except in communion with the Church on all matters of doctrine. If there is any disagreement I will assume it is myself that needs correction.
Luther strikes me as the sort an old sailor I know would call a ‘sea lawyer’. I am not in the service, but I have nonetheless sworn an oath of loyalty to my Queen. Don’t get your CO’s back up on something and then complain when you find yourself between the devil and the deep blue sea. Has anyone else ever sat through an argument between a Socialist and an Objectivist? Nasty, innit? Accusations will accomplish nothing, but confession – that might work.
The entanglement of the Church with the world does not bother me. IIRC the mission of the Church is divine, but the Church itself is mundane. Neither do I criticise the Church for the extent to which the Church has become dependent upon and subservient to socialist nation-states. I have shared in this myself, and told many lies for my own preservation. I cannot imagine that we could have had a better Monarch and Pope to carry us intact through the Socialist era than HM Elizabeth II and HH John Paul II. Any leaders more hot-headed or spineless would have got themselves and many others killed. What does bother me is that western Socialism is now in the early stages of collapse, and what once seemed a necessity is fast becoming a danger. It is from this that I know it is finally time for me to come to the Church, and to speak to my family and friends of what I have found.
When modern idolatry comes to its inevitable conclusion, all welfare, benefits, pensions and much else will be paid in Zimbabwean buttwipe if they are paid at all. When Socialism has collapsed, the Church will remain and many will need help. That old sailor has another saying: “When you’ve got 'em by the short and curlies, their hearts and minds will surely follow.”