My Boyfriend-Ryker has a hearing on the 13th of Feb with a team of health prof and family members,me and a social worker. They may decide to have him do out patient. He was diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic. I saw him yesterday for a longer time than usual. He is dellusional at times and other moments seems to be himself. I do want him to be out but then other things bother me. He stated there was still time for him to bike and train for the Tour deFrance. I giggled and he did not. I saw an odd uncertainty in my boyfriends eyes. I am praying for a miracle of mental healing.He has gone downhill fast since December. I am quite upset this morning but try and keep positive He is so drugged at times,nobody can reach him, Prayers for his mom and dad too. They are heartbroken.2nd son now with Schizophrenia. Just unreal for them as Ryker they believed was very intelligent and sensitive,never saw this. I think I have seen it coming and I look back to us in our teens and I think now it was there.I need to learn more.I am not equipped to care for him like I hope.
