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I used to have a problem with masturbation my whole life but I turned away from that sin after I had a reversion back to Christ.
Ever since my conversion something odd has been happening to me… Whenever I go to confession which is about once every two weeks, what happens is after I confess, I go home and feel a sense of closeness to God and feel really good about being in a state of grace. Then I go to bed that night after confession, and like clockwork I have a dream in a semi-conscious state (I dont feel fully awake, or fully asleep) and I begin to induce an orgasm through dirty thoughts, in a dream, and in the dream I’m masturbating or doing something to bring on an orgasm. It never seems to happen on any other day, other than the day I go to confession.
I dont get this. It drives me nuts because then I feel like I need to run right back to confession again. I feel like my state of grace gets ruined.
I really feel like this is demonic. I feel the devil has been tempting me towards lust since I was a little girl. I was only a toddler when I had my first orgasm. I’ve read that that’s not normal.
I told the priest in the confessional about this problem yesterday and he didnt say much about it, he sort of glossed over it. But sure enough I had the same thing happen to me last night. I know that if I’m asleep, then I’m not culpable, but sometimes I feel like I have control of the experience.
Does this sound demonic to you? What more can I do?
Ever since my conversion something odd has been happening to me… Whenever I go to confession which is about once every two weeks, what happens is after I confess, I go home and feel a sense of closeness to God and feel really good about being in a state of grace. Then I go to bed that night after confession, and like clockwork I have a dream in a semi-conscious state (I dont feel fully awake, or fully asleep) and I begin to induce an orgasm through dirty thoughts, in a dream, and in the dream I’m masturbating or doing something to bring on an orgasm. It never seems to happen on any other day, other than the day I go to confession.
I dont get this. It drives me nuts because then I feel like I need to run right back to confession again. I feel like my state of grace gets ruined.
I really feel like this is demonic. I feel the devil has been tempting me towards lust since I was a little girl. I was only a toddler when I had my first orgasm. I’ve read that that’s not normal.
I told the priest in the confessional about this problem yesterday and he didnt say much about it, he sort of glossed over it. But sure enough I had the same thing happen to me last night. I know that if I’m asleep, then I’m not culpable, but sometimes I feel like I have control of the experience.
Does this sound demonic to you? What more can I do?