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I have learned that even though my past was over ten years ago any man can use it as an excuse to move onto who they consider a good women. Even if I completely turn my life around which I have. the man I helped uses my past as a way to move onto a woman who he has to hide his past from as he slanders me. This is what good people do. At least in my experience.
I have helped my husband by helping him through withdrawals. He walks around with so much confidence because he knows I love him and knowing that he can move onto be with someone he actually loves. I have learned that he will think at anytime I will come running to his side when he needs me.
I am not sure what to do. He pushes me aside when I go to hug him. He says I need him for money. He asked me to change my life in a way that I ended up living with him which meant he spent money on my daughter and I.
I have not used alcohol, used drugs, been with other men in over ten years and now I don’t even speak to other men.
All I know is the neighbor’s middle aged daughter moved back home after her boyfriend kicked her out. She saw my husband and came running outside last Fourth of July. She pointed at my husband like a little girl and then looked at me like I was such a terrible person. Then she went and sat on the curve in her shorts and tube top in 32 degree weather at night while my husband set off fire works with my daughter and I. She pretended that she wasn’t interested in him being out there.
I guess he wants to be with someone he loves and likes to look at. He has also told me sex is not part of a relationship. He wants a woman who doesn’t wants a woman who doesn’t want sex I guess. I don’t know.
I get confused on this part because I will keep my distance and not touch him. I sit on the sectional with two feet between us. He told me I hug him too much. Then he says he wants a hug, he asks if I love him because I say I don’t feel like a hug, and when I do hug him he says I am taking advantage of him. I honestly don’t know what he wants.
I think sometimes it means I should just tell him to go to whoever he wants to be with.
I have spent over ten years cooking and cleaning. I look homely. My best pair of shoes are a pair of new balance walking sneakers.
It is difficult to be attending college, living on a budget, and feeling like I am going to become a single mom again.
It seems my husband realizes with me life is a struggle. He sees the neighbors own their own home and can afford things. I think he would rather be over there.
What concerns me is how he always tells my daughter out of the blue, “You got to take care of your mom.”
When I first met my husband I told him that I wanted to go to school because he told me he had to do illegal things in order to get by. He said No, he didn’t want me to work unless I had to.
This Spring I will be taking my last two courses. Then I apply for work.
Sometimes I have thought of sending my daughter to my younger sister and maybe ending my life. I only think that my daughter needs me and I want to be around for her.
I don’t know if I can do this anymore. I have tried so hard and he doesn’t care. He only wants what is good looking. I just look like a mess. I earn $595.00 a month on social security and my life really isn’t great come night time when I lay down to bed.
He doesn’t love me. He pushes me away when I hug him. Sometimes he is so sweet and then he seems like he doesn’t love me.
I can only wait to see how things will go when I finish school. Hopefully things will be better then. I want to be here for my daughter.
I have helped my husband by helping him through withdrawals. He walks around with so much confidence because he knows I love him and knowing that he can move onto be with someone he actually loves. I have learned that he will think at anytime I will come running to his side when he needs me.
I am not sure what to do. He pushes me aside when I go to hug him. He says I need him for money. He asked me to change my life in a way that I ended up living with him which meant he spent money on my daughter and I.
I have not used alcohol, used drugs, been with other men in over ten years and now I don’t even speak to other men.
All I know is the neighbor’s middle aged daughter moved back home after her boyfriend kicked her out. She saw my husband and came running outside last Fourth of July. She pointed at my husband like a little girl and then looked at me like I was such a terrible person. Then she went and sat on the curve in her shorts and tube top in 32 degree weather at night while my husband set off fire works with my daughter and I. She pretended that she wasn’t interested in him being out there.
I guess he wants to be with someone he loves and likes to look at. He has also told me sex is not part of a relationship. He wants a woman who doesn’t wants a woman who doesn’t want sex I guess. I don’t know.
I get confused on this part because I will keep my distance and not touch him. I sit on the sectional with two feet between us. He told me I hug him too much. Then he says he wants a hug, he asks if I love him because I say I don’t feel like a hug, and when I do hug him he says I am taking advantage of him. I honestly don’t know what he wants.
I think sometimes it means I should just tell him to go to whoever he wants to be with.
I have spent over ten years cooking and cleaning. I look homely. My best pair of shoes are a pair of new balance walking sneakers.
It is difficult to be attending college, living on a budget, and feeling like I am going to become a single mom again.
It seems my husband realizes with me life is a struggle. He sees the neighbors own their own home and can afford things. I think he would rather be over there.
What concerns me is how he always tells my daughter out of the blue, “You got to take care of your mom.”
When I first met my husband I told him that I wanted to go to school because he told me he had to do illegal things in order to get by. He said No, he didn’t want me to work unless I had to.
This Spring I will be taking my last two courses. Then I apply for work.
Sometimes I have thought of sending my daughter to my younger sister and maybe ending my life. I only think that my daughter needs me and I want to be around for her.
I don’t know if I can do this anymore. I have tried so hard and he doesn’t care. He only wants what is good looking. I just look like a mess. I earn $595.00 a month on social security and my life really isn’t great come night time when I lay down to bed.
He doesn’t love me. He pushes me away when I hug him. Sometimes he is so sweet and then he seems like he doesn’t love me.
I can only wait to see how things will go when I finish school. Hopefully things will be better then. I want to be here for my daughter.