Dear Betsy,
I truly appreciate your reply and your effort to help. If I’m still a bit befogged, it’s not your fault, believe me. You write eloquently and I hang on every precious word. I know writing takes time. I’m a writer. And you are doing this out of the goodness of your heart. I want you to understand that this is not going unrecognized and as before stated, unappreciated.
I am not a baptized Christian. Or a firm believer of religions. However I try to live a life wherein I may do good unto others. And that is primarily because I have studied the teachings of Jesus more than most and have found them to be exemplary. He was in every way deserving of respect, philosophically, morally and as an icon of the good life. He believed what He thought. And what He thought He preached. His ideas were quite new for His time and place. It was a simple “Do unto others as ye would have done unto you” and this was what He wished and what He wished He put into words and these words He spread amongst His acolytes and His fellow citizens as far as His voice could reach. They were not “safe” words. They were extreme, liberal, rebellious, dangerous, enemy-engendering. He knew He would have to forfeit His life for the necessity of heralding these words. But there was a higher purpose. And to Him the price was small. There was no electrical power of communication, no Internet for Him. He had to travel, barefoot, in extreme poverty, hungry, but sustained by His higher good of reaching as many souls as His God had put before Him. Although He sacrificed many mortal things, things of the flesh, His “higher purpose” urged Him on to put the word out to as many yearning creatures of the Father of All Men as were willing to listen. He didn’t shun society. He embraced it, lectured, taught, needled, loved with a passion not seen in two thousand years that followed. It was a form of social intercourse that had not been witnessed before or since. Jesus did not, to my knowledge, ask His disciples to bury themselves in caves for years away from their brethren to focus on themselves - to blot out humanity - He would, it seems to me, have been shocked and revolted by the idea. Jesus was a Man of the People, and would have insisted, demanded, “Go Thou and do Likewise.” In this way, I too am a Christian. And I’m proud to say, so are many of my irreligious friends.
This is what stumps me, and again, I say this out of pure honest, respectful questioning passion to know…what is it that turned everyone away from this philosophy? Where was it written that novices must spend two, three years in contemplation, not of the trials and horrors or what is going on outside in the real, trammeled world - the Jesus world - but turn inward and pull the curtain and cast a dark cloud, a shadow on a forged, a soi-disant reality, as if its very essence, its knowledge, would pollute the soul rather, than as it did with the Savior, enrich it?
I ask the question humbly. I hope you will find the grace in yourself and in your superiors to respond to this worrisome conundrum. It is important, not only to find grist for questioning within the characters in my work (if there’s no conflict in story, the viewer will be put to sleep - that’s an essential rule in playwriting), but for my own sense of curiosity, purpose, well-being - and truth-telling!
Thank you for your interest and your responses. I know your life is not simple and corresponding with a writer who has his feet on the ground is probably not your favorite way to pass the time. I apologize if any of my words give offense. They are certainly not intended.
Yours in a mutual love in Christ’s love,
Paul