OCD

[sublime]

Hello everyone. I am new to this site and I thank you all for welcoming me. I’ll start by saying I’m Catholic. I’m 29 years old. I was raised Catholic, but have spent my adult life not focusing on my spirituality. In the past month, I have found Jesus back in my life, and I am grateful. I don’t plan on losing Him again.

I have never been diagnosed with OCD, but I know I have it to a certain extent. It’s weird, because ever since God has been back in my life, I feel like I’ve been fighting an evil spirit or something in my head. I’ll have thoughts of saying evil stuff towards Jesus. I know He knows it’s not really me or my thoughts. The second I’m done saying or thinking the evil, I automatically pray and ask for forgiveness and let Him know that wasn’t really me. I really hope this is just a phase and I will eventually become mentally stronger and avoid these occurences. I know this might sound insane to some, but I know it happens to other people.

I suppose I am just looking for advice, thoughts, and/or assurance. I would prefer not to get responses saying I should see a doctor, although maybe there is truth to that.

Thank you!

 

[Meemai]

Hello everyone. I am new to this site and I thank you all for welcoming me. I’ll start by saying I’m Catholic. I’m 29 years old. I was raised Catholic, but have spent my adult life not focusing on my spirituality. In the past month, I have found Jesus back in my life, and I am grateful. I don’t plan on losing Him again.

I have never been diagnosed with OCD, but I know I have it to a certain extent. It’s weird, because ever since God has been back in my life, I feel like I’ve been fighting an evil spirit or something in my head. I’ll have thoughts of saying evil stuff towards Jesus. I know He knows it’s not really me or my thoughts. The second I’m done saying or thinking the evil, I automatically pray and ask for forgiveness and let Him know that wasn’t really me. I really hope this is just a phase and I will eventually become mentally stronger and avoid these occurences. I know this might sound insane to some, but I know it happens to other people.

I suppose I am just looking for advice, thoughts, and/or assurance. I would prefer not to get responses saying I should see a doctor, although maybe there is truth to that.

Thank you!

I am still strugling in finding God. I am 21 now but started a half year ago when I was 21. Well let’s say I became christian around christmass a bit before christmass.

I also said bad things about jesus in my mind. And also other things like Maria etc, I felt bad about it and have also made a topic about it some say it’s the devil others say it’s a phase.

I still havn’t been able to find God and quit praying. I find it hard to start again. So be careful and take it slow if you go at it to hard like I did you will lose your faith. Probably. So take it slow…

 

[sublime]

I am still strugling in finding God. I am 21 now but started a half year ago when I was 21. Well let’s say I became christian around christmass a bit before christmass.

I also said bad things about jesus in my mind. And also other things like Maria etc, I felt bad about it and have also made a topic about it some say it’s the devil others say it’s a phase.

I still havn’t been able to find God and quit praying. I find it hard to start again. So be careful and take it slow if you go at it to hard like I did you will lose your faith. Probably. So take it slow…

Don’t quit. Just because you feel like He doesn’t hear or see you, He does. It’s extremely true when people say He works in mysterious ways. I think it’s a miracle in itself how He just recently grabbed my attention. So much has changed in my life for the better since.

 

[Just_Lurking]

Read about Intrusive Thoughts (see here), especially about blasphemous religious thoughts.

 

[bsroufek]

Read about Intrusive Thoughts (see here), especially about blasphemous religious thoughts.

Although useful, I believe this article discounts the role of Satan in intrusive thoughts. It states that they are just part of the human condition, but I’m certain Satan is behind them.

 

[Just_Lurking]

Although useful, I believe this article discounts the role of Satan in intrusive thoughts. It states that they are just part of the human condition, but I’m certain Satan is behind them.

Nonetheless, I am finding the medication prescribed by my psychiatrist to be quite helpful in managing my intrusive thought.

 

[CrispSnowflake]

Same with me. The thoughts (really bad thoughts against Him) went down a little but they are still there. They are such a nuisance. I wish you all the best! I heard that reading your Bible may help, but I haven’t gotten around to it much, so I can’t really say anything about it.

 

[sublime]

Thanks for the replies.

I have done research on the subject before posting. I suppose it’s just all overwhelming and I needed to vent.

I believe if it’s an evil spirit or Satan himself, he wants us to be miserable and feeling horrible about these situations. I’m sure Satan is happy that I’m stressing out about this and on forums looking for assurance.

Is it fair to believe that God knows that it’s not my true thoughts/words and He won’t judge me for them??

As long as He knows I don’t mean it and it’s not my true beliefs, then I’m good. That’s not say I can have these thoughts whenever I want and it’s okay. But that seems to be my main concern. I believe God knows us better than we know ourselves… That alone makes me feel better about the situation.

 

[Meemai]

Thanks for the replies.

I have done research on the subject before posting. I suppose it’s just all overwhelming and I needed to vent.

I believe if it’s an evil spirit or Satan himself, he wants us to be miserable and feeling horrible about these situations. I’m sure Satan is happy that I’m stressing out about this and on forums looking for assurance.

Is it fair to believe that God knows that it’s not my true thoughts/words and He won’t judge me for them??

As long as He knows I don’t mean it and it’s not my true beliefs, then I’m good. That’s not say I can have these thoughts whenever I want and it’s okay. But that seems to be my main concern. I believe God knows us better than we know ourselves… That alone makes me feel better about the situation.

Acording to my priest Satan is just a cunning dog on a leash. And Jesus has beaten Satan long ago, maybe you should tell yourself that. But then again conditions of the mind etc they might interfere as I see a lot of people with this problem including myself are mentally ill.