Oh! I’m sorry. I didn’t realize that you had reverted to Catholicism. Some non-Catholic Christians have a serious problem with the Catholic Church.
I was only wondering because I know how frustrating it is to try to help someone who isn’t committed to moving forward. Or, will only move forward in a manner that they have already decided upon (even if other solutions would be productive and helpful).
In any case, since jobs in your field of expertise are difficult to find right now, can you enroll in a college program that could get you a job in a new field within a relatively short period of time?
I’m asking because I am starting a college pre-apprenticship course (HVAC) which is much in demand in my area. I’m 46, hardworking, etc. and need to change careers because landscaping simply does not provide me with the year round employment that I would like. Turns out, too, this program would allow me to earn considerably more money as an entry level employee.
So, maybe you could make a lateral move. Maybe it would just be temporary until jobs in your field open up. At least it would be a move for the future instead of dwelling in the unpleasantness of your current situation.