Ok I need help with my view of agency and a refresher on free will in Catholicism

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One thing that I been thinking about lately is how maybe my understanding of free will in Catholicism is underdeveloped a/o that I dont understand it as well as I use to.I know that I * shouldn’t * feel and view life this way when I think about how I’ve got dozens of HTML tutorials & demos 4 homework,how I’m getting closer and closer to being royally messed over with binary arithmetic* b/c negativity (being life’s non-physics version of entropy and is why everything so ridiculously fragile) makes Finagle’s law always around with negative’s always outnumbering positives and if not that it’s b/c one negative can have tremondous magnitude more than dozens of positives.

Hence my free agency is actually very limited.Esp.when you throw into consideration my Asperger’s which really makes me feel like in retrospect I never had much agency all along b/c I’ve (unbeknowest to me for most of my life) have been following a quasi-biological script.

I’m sorry :bighanky: I know that I shouldn’t feel this way but I DO even though I wouldn’t like to feel and think this way.I do even this even though I wouldn’t like to feel this way but it just flippin feels SSSSSOOOOOO elephant in a room-ish to not do it.But in this case it’s more like ignoring a indestructible monster you have to feed and bring tribute to or else it will eat you.

I remeber something from Le Miserables that goes “Give to God the things that are God’s and to fate the things that are fate” which made me ask "…how can you tell the difference?".So much in religion can only be answered after slowly and closely analyzing what would otherwise be to convoluted to take in,in one glance.WHY CANT AN OMNIPOTENT BEING JUST GIVE ME A STRAIGHT ANSWER ALREADY!!!:crying:.Good grief,the unpredictability of knowing if he’s teaching me,comminating me,both or something else is torturous!

Thus I’d appreciate any replies and I think I need a refresher on free will in Catholicism.By the way when I’ve been described as a fatalist b/c of this and I’s esp.appreciate if someone can illuminate more on this before Oct,1st when I’m going to talk to my school counsoler on this …

*forums.catholic-questions.org/showthread.php?p=8678175#post8678175

*Man it takes me down memory lane seeing arithmetic become painful again -_-

 

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One thing that I been thinking about lately is how maybe my understanding of free will in Catholicism is underdeveloped a/o that I dont understand it as well as I use to.I know that I * shouldn’t * feel and view life this way when I think about how I’ve got dozens of HTML tutorials & demos 4 homework,how I’m getting closer and closer to being royally messed over with binary arithmetic* b/c negativity (being life’s non-physics version of entropy and is why everything so ridiculously fragile) makes Finagle’s law always around with negative’s always outnumbering positives and if not that it’s b/c one negative can have tremondous magnitude more than dozens of positives.

Hence my free agency is actually very limited.Esp.when you throw into consideration my Asperger’s which really makes me feel like in retrospect I never had much agency all along b/c I’ve (unbeknowest to me for most of my life) have been following a quasi-biological script.

I’m sorry :bighanky: I know that I shouldn’t feel this way but I DO even though I wouldn’t like to feel and think this way.I do even this even though I wouldn’t like to feel this way but it just flippin feels SSSSSOOOOOO elephant in a room-ish to not do it.But in this case it’s more like ignoring a indestructible monster you have to feed and bring tribute to or else it will eat you.

I remeber something from Le Miserables that goes “Give to God the things that are God’s and to fate the things that are fate” which made me ask "…how can you tell the difference?".So much in religion can only be answered after slowly and closely analyzing what would otherwise be to convoluted to take in,in one glance.WHY CANT AN OMNIPOTENT BEING JUST GIVE ME A STRAIGHT ANSWER ALREADY!!!:crying:.Good grief,the unpredictability of knowing if he’s teaching me,comminating me,both or something else is torturous!

Thus I’d appreciate any replies and I think I need a refresher on free will in Catholicism.By the way when I’ve been described as a fatalist b/c of this and I’s esp.appreciate if someone can illuminate more on this before Oct,1st when I’m going to talk to my school counsoler on this …

*forums.catholic-questions.org/showthread.php?p=8678175#post8678175

*Man it takes me down memory lane seeing arithmetic become painful again -_-

When all else fails " read the manual. " Catechism of the Catholic Church, Part 3, Section 1, Chap 1, Artidles 3-8.

Calm down, just present your thoughts in a straight forward fashion. Your approach really isn’t " funny " or interesting or impressive.

 

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When all else fails " read the manual. " Catechism of the Catholic Church, Part 3, Section 1, Chap 1, Artidles 3-8.

Calm down, just present your thoughts in a straight forward fashion. Your approach really isn’t " funny " or interesting or impressive.

Thanks for tip on the CCC but I wasn’t trying to be “funny”,interesting o impressive actually.I was trying to be more accurate to what I would say and how I’d react if one were to talk to me in person about these things and I was bold enuff to let it all gush out.It actually my usual approach 4 postings around here.And hey,take a look at the time of when this was written.There’s a reason why when I throw a qausi-tantrum like that it’s at that hour and comes out like that.