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well I know as christians we are supposed to be loving and charitable right? but there is this person who has really got no genuine respect for me whatsoever…like she lives her life in a way that I wouldn’t go in for at ALL. Now normally I wouldn’t mind and I would say it was her business entirely. But the problem is that she has taken what was my most important and most personal and concrete self-expression away from me, and has applied it to herself instead. this leaves me like an empty shell. yet even though she’s done this to me, it’s not like I’m a deeply important person in her life or like she wants to live like me and treat me like I’m special to her. when I’m trying to have a conversation with her, for example, she usually walks or drives away on me. talk about lack of respect.
On the other hand, it’s kind of my fault, because I was careless in the way I expressed myself, and I probably gave her the impression that this was something I genuinely stood for and that I would be happy for something like this to happen…so she can’t be held responsible for expecting me to live up to what I said I stood for…and from her perspective, I’m the one who’s been thoughtless and hurtful to HER.
well it’s now deeply annoying me and for 2 reasons. One, because she took this away from me and left me like that, which still leaves me seething sometimes, and she really is not my type of person, we cannot connect with each other and tend to find the other’s behaviour unacceptable. who does she think she IS, and why is it in any way acceptable to do this to me? 2, because I do know that I should take full responsibility for not moderating my dealings with the general public, hence getting myself into this, and dissapointing her by not living up to the false impression which I so carelessly allowed her to swallow.
so the point is, what do I do now? do I forget her and focus on enjoying my own personal musings (which have now being fully restored, and which I now guard carefully instead of carelessly blabbing to the public.) or do I try pursue this and be supportive of what she did to me? (which, as I keep reminding myself, would be the christian thing to do, and if I could actually do it would bring me much fulfillment; but I often get a bad feeling from being anywhere near her, and dealings with her tend to unsettle me further.) so I don’t know…
I have a habit of energetically praying for this intention whenever I go on an especially long journey to a new place. I’ve done this twice so far. After both times I got a very fair oppurtunity to do the christian thing towards this person, but both times I botched it up awfully. which probably explains and justifies her treatment of me. and which left me very uneasy. well, I’m going on a 3rd long journey very soon, and I was planning to focus on it this time, too. do you think I should? Or should I give up and focus on some other intention? I’m not entirely sure, so give me your inspirations on the subject, and your insights into the situation.
Thank you all! Happy Easter! But I am not well today, and my soul is somewhat burdened from all this, so your prayers would be much appreciated.
Blessings…
On the other hand, it’s kind of my fault, because I was careless in the way I expressed myself, and I probably gave her the impression that this was something I genuinely stood for and that I would be happy for something like this to happen…so she can’t be held responsible for expecting me to live up to what I said I stood for…and from her perspective, I’m the one who’s been thoughtless and hurtful to HER.
well it’s now deeply annoying me and for 2 reasons. One, because she took this away from me and left me like that, which still leaves me seething sometimes, and she really is not my type of person, we cannot connect with each other and tend to find the other’s behaviour unacceptable. who does she think she IS, and why is it in any way acceptable to do this to me? 2, because I do know that I should take full responsibility for not moderating my dealings with the general public, hence getting myself into this, and dissapointing her by not living up to the false impression which I so carelessly allowed her to swallow.
so the point is, what do I do now? do I forget her and focus on enjoying my own personal musings (which have now being fully restored, and which I now guard carefully instead of carelessly blabbing to the public.) or do I try pursue this and be supportive of what she did to me? (which, as I keep reminding myself, would be the christian thing to do, and if I could actually do it would bring me much fulfillment; but I often get a bad feeling from being anywhere near her, and dealings with her tend to unsettle me further.) so I don’t know…
I have a habit of energetically praying for this intention whenever I go on an especially long journey to a new place. I’ve done this twice so far. After both times I got a very fair oppurtunity to do the christian thing towards this person, but both times I botched it up awfully. which probably explains and justifies her treatment of me. and which left me very uneasy. well, I’m going on a 3rd long journey very soon, and I was planning to focus on it this time, too. do you think I should? Or should I give up and focus on some other intention? I’m not entirely sure, so give me your inspirations on the subject, and your insights into the situation.
Thank you all! Happy Easter! But I am not well today, and my soul is somewhat burdened from all this, so your prayers would be much appreciated.
Blessings…
