I just learned today that my parents are getting a divorce
this is very hard for me to deal with. My family has been through some hard times but I never expected this to happen. It’s almost happened a few times, but it seems now it’s for real.
For some reason, I feel kind of numb, like I don’t even want to talk about it with my friends, which is unusual, and I don’t have any brothers or sisters I could talk to.
What really makes me sad is how much anger there is at home and how my parents can’t seem to forgive each other. I’m scared about that… I’ve been praying for so long that we’d be a happy family, and go to church together, but my family never goes to church (I just go alone). I’ve been praying for a while for them to return to the Sacraments (they’re actually Eastern Orthodox, and I’m Catholic) but I don’ t know if it will happen now. I’m scared they’ll never forgive each other, to be honest.
I also don’t know what the future would be like… I was planning to move out soon, when I graduate, but now I dont know, cause mom would be alone. We don’t have any relatives living nearby… and I have no idea where the money is going to come from. I just feel really bad about everything. And my dad, he hates his job, but he stayed in it for the family, but now there won’t be a family. I don’t know what will happen to ANY of us.
I’m also worried about my relationship with my mom, she blamed me for a lot of what happened, and then told me that I’m reacting to this wrong, I should be happy that now there’ll be more peace, and that my prayers “won’t help me.” But I believe in prayer, and I’m praying. I just pray that even though my parents will be divorced, they’ll still forgive one another, and not hold on to any hatred or anger.
I’d appreciate prayers very much… I really don’t want to complain, but I don’t know who to say all this to, and I feel like my life’s so messed up right now, not only in terms of family but in many other ways either. Nothing is really going right… I feel like all I have is God, really. I’m glad He’s always with us
thank you :hug1: and I’m sorry this got so long.