It seems as though in modern times, many who call themselves Catholic are into asking whether or not one has a “personal relationship with Jesus”. This is particularly big with those who buy into “charismatic renewal”. It seems as though, in an attempt to unify with protestantism, these folks think they are going to “ween people away” from what they consider archaic about Holy Mother Church. Perhaps they don’t believe in the teaching authority of the Church and that the Church as the visible Body of Christ is not necessary. Thoughts?
I actually was puzzled by this “personal relationship with Jesus” in my past Catholic life before I returned to the Church. I had always had a more “natural faith” rather than a “supernatural faith”. I was sincerely puzzled as to if God truly loved me personally. I had a very difficult childhood all the way up into my 30s. It was hard to understand how God would love me and yet all these things happened.
It wasn’t until I came back to the Church in my mid-forties (just 4 years ago) and made my Confession to re-enter the Church. That night I cried for about 2 or 3 hours, a weeping that touched me to the core, it was a kind of weeping that was unknown to me (and believe me, I’ve shed a lot of tears in my life). It was that night, after my Confession, that I truly knew, truly understood, that God did indeed know me, He did indeed love me. Truly as a Father, as a Friend, as a Savior. I was weeping in a type of mourning I guess. I was so touched in my heart that I had doubted the Lord’s love for me, this unrequited, infinite love for all my 40+ years, and yet, He still came to me, took my hand and rose me from the dead.
I have no idea what happened, the Confession was not as complete as it should have been (unintentionally), the priest was lovely but didn’t really say anything to me that hadn’t been said to me before, but yet…something happened.
Whenever I hear “personal relationship with Jesus”, I now know what that means. Jesus is alive and well and genuinely interested in you and me and what’s going on around us.