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This is a question I wrestle with. When I observe certain people - they possess all the ideal traits. It makes me wonder what good does professing a belief in Christ do anyways or any God? If there is a God, why didn’t He make us have good traits? This is someone in particular - emotionally stable, even-tempered, logical, rational, honest, reasonable, healthy, self-determined, focused, hard-working yet flexible, easygoing, peaceful, content, realistic, practical, well-balanced and responsible. This person can accept things, people and situations for what they are. This person does not need validation from others. This person can easily forgive others. Things do not seem to penetrate or worry this person too much. They seem to guiding by on life. Some people cannot accept difficult circumstances. Some people by nature get stuck and addicted to particular sins. Others can easily wade them off. Some people who have temperaments are prone to depression, angry, and arrogance while some temperaments are just more easygoing and lovable. God will not love you any more if contemplating about his existence, praying daily and attending mass. A person can repent sincerely on his dying breath and earn the same heaven that those who faced persecution in His name. Salvation is not determined by works. Not all of us will reach the same understanding about God. Some people have a higher, deeper understanding about God, while others have a more shallow understanding. Once again, our understanding about God does not determine our worth. I feel like only the weak in need God. Those who cannot find the power within themselves. Those who are not physically, emotionally or financially stable need Christ.There are others who lack all of these traits. I wonder why is it wrong to love one child more than the other, if one is almost perfect and other is not? I wonder how are we all sinners? Some people “sins” never backfire. Supposedly this is will all happen in the next life. The next life is not determined. All I know that life I am living is real. I am very familiar with saints, why does God give the largest crosses to those who love him the most? Some crosses are dealing with alcohol, abusive husband, incurable illnesses, persecution. Who would want them for someone who loves them? Often people pray and their prayers are never answered. Supposedly God answers them in his own time and way, He knows what is best for us. Really? What is so evil about premarital sex? Most Catholics do it and will continue to do, till the point they altogether forget it is a sin. God does nothing about it. Ultimately all this fight against personal, public or societal sin is relentless. It will never end.
Yet despite all my pessimism and doubts towards God - I cannot stop attending mass, wondering about Him or praying. I am not leaving the Catholic Church anytime soon.
Yet despite all my pessimism and doubts towards God - I cannot stop attending mass, wondering about Him or praying. I am not leaving the Catholic Church anytime soon.