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I am in extream anxiety, panic and pain right now, I’ve hit rock bottom right now I cant think straight. I need to really vent and ask your prayers, I dont want to be selfish just asking for prayers for myself Im sorry for this.

Last night was the worst night of my life, I am in complete shame its unbearable and Im scared. I dont drink often, but when I do I cant seem to control myself. I dont want to drink ever again. I drank too much last night and agreed to go to a strip club. I ended up doing horrible things and I cant remember much of it which scares me even more. I am so shameful I want God to forgive and protect me from diseases. And I also for some reason fought my brother, I made him bleed and he battered me pretty good. I’m sorry for hurting him. And I also worried him after the fight trying to sleep outside in the freezing cold, he went looking for me.

I don’t know what to do, I’ve also been struggling with anxiety and social issues and depression but I’ve never talked to anyone about it, no one. I go months without any kind of human contact, no hugs no handshakes not even with my family, part of that is my fault, it might be all my fault. Im starved for true friendship and goodness. I dont even know who I am, I dont know what my interests even are, all I know is U2 is my favorite band and their music gives some kind of comfort. Im in college and have no clue what to major in. Please pray for me, Im sorry for this long post a speel about myself, Im so desperate right now. I want to pray for all you as well, I pray that God hears us, I hope he is real, I hope there really is a kingdom. If there is I can not describe to you the joy of knowing this to be true. I pray we all can be cleansed by God, be a new, brand new and all good beyond anything we can understand, maybe thats why we dont know.
 
Disciple87 said:
I am in extream anxiety, panic and pain right now, I’ve hit rock bottom right now I cant think straight. I need to really vent and ask your prayers, I dont want to be selfish just asking for prayers for myself Im sorry for this.

Last night was the worst night of my life, I am in complete shame its unbearable and Im scared. I dont drink often, but when I do I cant seem to control myself. I dont want to drink ever again. I drank too much last night and agreed to go to a strip club. I ended up doing horrible things and I cant remember much of it which scares me even more. I am so shameful I want God to forgive and protect me from diseases. And I also for some reason fought my brother, I made him bleed and he battered me pretty good. I’m sorry for hurting him. And I also worried him after the fight trying to sleep outside in the freezing cold, he went looking for me.

I don’t know what to do, I’ve also been struggling with anxiety and social issues and depression but I’ve never talked to anyone about it, no one. I go months without any kind of human contact, no hugs no handshakes not even with my family, part of that is my fault, it might be all my fault. Im starved for true friendship and goodness. I dont even know who I am, I dont know what my interests even are, all I know is U2 is my favorite band and their music gives some kind of comfort. Im in college and have no clue what to major in. Please pray for me, Im sorry for this long post a speel about myself, Im so desperate right now. I want to pray for all you as well, I pray that God hears us, I hope he is real, I hope there really is a kingdom. If there is I can not describe to you the joy of knowing this to be true. I pray we all can be cleansed by God, be a new, brand new and all good beyond anything we can understand, maybe thats why we dont know.
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wow Disciple 87. I am sorry to see that you went through all that, First off try to join a church and get involved. Try to read some of the bible if y ou don’t. Keep praying and having faith. IT’s a good sign that you came here instead of doing other things. It shows that you do care about how you live your life.

Lord please bless Disciple87, He is truly sorry for what he has done. Shower him with you unending love and mercy lord and keep him safe from harm for he is your child. In the name of Christ our Lord.
Amen

Stay strong.

:blessyou: :amen: :bible1: :gopray:
 
Our Father…
Hail Mary…
Glory Be…
Prayer to Saint Jude…

God is real, and so is his UNCONDITIONAL love for you.
 
Disciple87 said:
I am in extream anxiety, panic and pain right now, I’ve hit rock bottom right now I cant think straight. I need to really vent and ask your prayers, I dont want to be selfish just asking for prayers for myself Im sorry for this.

Last night was the worst night of my life, I am in complete shame its unbearable and Im scared. I dont drink often, but when I do I cant seem to control myself. I dont want to drink ever again. I drank too much last night and agreed to go to a strip club. I ended up doing horrible things and I cant remember much of it which scares me even more. I am so shameful I want God to forgive and protect me from diseases. And I also for some reason fought my brother, I made him bleed and he battered me pretty good. I’m sorry for hurting him. And I also worried him after the fight trying to sleep outside in the freezing cold, he went looking for me.

I don’t know what to do, I’ve also been struggling with anxiety and social issues and depression but I’ve never talked to anyone about it, no one. I go months without any kind of human contact, no hugs no handshakes not even with my family, part of that is my fault, it might be all my fault. Im starved for true friendship and goodness. I dont even know who I am, I dont know what my interests even are, all I know is U2 is my favorite band and their music gives some kind of comfort. Im in college and have no clue what to major in. Please pray for me, Im sorry for this long post a speel about myself, Im so desperate right now. I want to pray for all you as well, I pray that God hears us, I hope he is real, I hope there really is a kingdom. If there is I can not describe to you the joy of knowing this to be true. I pray we all can be cleansed by God, be a new, brand new and all good beyond anything we can understand, maybe thats why we dont know.
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I understand how you feel. I have been in the darkness too for a long time. I had been depressed, felt guilty and dirty of the many things that I did.

But God gave me hope that despite all the things that I have done, no matter how filthy I am, He can make me make me clean and give me a new life, a new start, a new heart. For he said in Isaiah, 18 Come now, let us set things right, says the LORD: Though your sins be like scarlet, they may become white as snow; Though they be crimson red, they may become white as wool.

Isaiah 43:25: I, even I, am the one who wipes out your transgressions for My own sake, And I will not remember your sins.

I pray that you might find healing and hope and that the Lord will grant you forgiveness and fill your heart with His love and make you whole again. This I pray in Jesus’ name.
 
We all learn by our mistakes, and as you are so upset by it all you wont go down that road again, so you need to stop berating yourself and go on and learn by it :gopray2:
 
**Praying the rosary right now for you,Im sorry that you are feeling so sad right now,I have three grandchildren in college,I know the pressures and temptation.You can PM me any time,you want to vent,feel free.I will continue to pray nightly for you **
 
Dear Disciple87, I’m sorry I can’t think of anything helpful to say…but praying for you.:console:
 
J†M†J
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

God Bless
In Jesus through Mary
Steve
 
Disciple87:

It is painful to hear what you are going through. I’m praying that your will start to feel better. You said that you are not sure what to do, do as Father Corapi said once…in whatever you do come as a servant and expect to serve, you will be filled with grace.

Prayerfully,

Renato
 
Disciple87,

Find a good priest or counselor to speak with. Perhaps your problem goes deeper than you know. I can tell you one thing is for certain, I have done things in my past that I never thought I would do! I know that feeling well. It’s scary.

I’ll be praying for you.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and at the hour of our death. Amen.
 
Thank you all, God bless you all.

I really want to go speak to a priest, I dont want to live an evil life. It has also been a very long time since my last confession and I’ve been taking the Eucharist while in mortal sin prior to this event. I am in extream shame of my actions and also fear for my health.

I pray that all of us looking for comfort from God, find it. And those wanting another chance, get it.
 
Dear Beloved Brother! 🙂

I read that one of the Saints once said that to despair of God’s Divine Mercy, which knows no bounds, is almost as bad as to presume it. Therefore my brother, please do not despair. All of us go through tough times in our lives, some definately tougher than others. It is VERY good that you have decided to amend your life. Sometimes God allows us to be tempted by the Devil in order that we will come to realize the darkness of our iniquities and really ‘detest’ them, never wishing to repeat them again. Oops, i don’t mean to ramble, but yea, just keep in mind of God’s infinite Love for you. It is also VERY GOOD that you are going to receive the Sacrament of Confession. Keep it up, personally, i never really realised my own sinfullness until I started to try to live a holy life. Okay, I’ll end here 😃

I bid you and everyone the Peace of Our Lord!
Cheers!
 
A very moving post! An overwhelming event of some kind can often be the turning point in life …I pray so for you. I will be praying too that you will be able to make a Good Confession and that Peace will be restored to your heart, mind and soul and that your life will indeed at this point be completely turned around…Our Lady of Mercy pray for him. Jesus we trust you…
 
Thank you all for your support. Thaddaeus and BarbaraTherese, what you said makes so much sense. God may have been trying to change me for the better. Since this event I see myself being opened minded of other people and their situations and I am being more respectful to my family. I also see the importance of being “active” in faith.

Tomorrow there is confession at my church, please pray I will have the strength to go.
 
Disciple87 said:
I am in extream anxiety, panic and pain right now, I’ve hit rock bottom right now I cant think straight. I need to really vent and ask your prayers, I dont want to be selfish just asking for prayers for myself Im sorry for this.

Last night was the worst night of my life, I am in complete shame its unbearable and Im scared. I dont drink often, but when I do I cant seem to control myself. I dont want to drink ever again. I drank too much last night and agreed to go to a strip club. I ended up doing horrible things and I cant remember much of it which scares me even more. I am so shameful I want God to forgive and protect me from diseases. And I also for some reason fought my brother, I made him bleed and he battered me pretty good. I’m sorry for hurting him. And I also worried him after the fight trying to sleep outside in the freezing cold, he went looking for me.

I don’t know what to do, I’ve also been struggling with anxiety and social issues and depression but I’ve never talked to anyone about it, no one. I go months without any kind of human contact, no hugs no handshakes not even with my family, part of that is my fault, it might be all my fault. Im starved for true friendship and goodness. I dont even know who I am, I dont know what my interests even are, all I know is U2 is my favorite band and their music gives some kind of comfort. Im in college and have no clue what to major in. Please pray for me, Im sorry for this long post a speel about myself, Im so desperate right now. I want to pray for all you as well, I pray that God hears us, I hope he is real, I hope there really is a kingdom. If there is I can not describe to you the joy of knowing this to be true. I pray we all can be cleansed by God, be a new, brand new and all good beyond anything we can understand, maybe thats why we dont know.
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I’m so sorry you are having to go through that. I’ll say a rosary for you during adoration tomorrow.
 
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