Please pray for me, to take the first step and not be afraid to serve the Lord!

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Hello my Brothers and Sisters in Christ,

I’m new here so this is hard for me to come out and ask for prayers but if any of you can please pray for me, it would mean so much to me.

I’ve been going through a lot emotionally for the past 13 years since I lost my mom. Been in and out of the hospital many times and now I haven’t been able to work for awhile due to this. I was engaged and my fiancé left me after 6 years to be with a girl who he got pregnant months after we broke up and married her. For 2 years, it was hard enough for me just to get out of the house and be with people again. I’ve been so depressed but been trying to hide it behind this smile I put on my face.

It wasn’t until 2 years ago, I was invited to go to confession from a friend and it changed everything. I was invited to go to a charismatic prayer healing prayer group at the parish. I’ve been going there ever since. I’ve joined the music ministry there. I’ve made amazing friends that have helped me so much in this journey with the Lord. I was asked to become a youth leader, but I felt like I wasn’t ready and I couldn’t do it with feeling so down. I’ve been asked to sing and audition for praise festivals coming up and I’ve been scared to do that, now I’ve been asked to help with the prayer teams pray with people and start doing street evangelization. Long story short, I AM STILL AFRAID. I still feel so broken but I know the Lord is healing me with every step I take with him. I’m in church almost everyday now at mass, adoration and prayer groups.*** I just want to take the first step out of this “boat” like Peter did. I want to step out onto the water towards Jesus and not to be afraid anymore to serve him! I love him so much!***

All I ask my friends, is that you say a prayer for me if you can. To help me renounce this spirit of fear in my life and not be afraid anymore because of my past. Please pray I find my own place soon as well and start working again and that I can walk through all the doors the Lord has opened for me. That I surrender myself completely to him and whatever he is calling me to do. I pray to fall in love again and get married and have a family but if not, I just want to keep loving Jesus for the rest of my life. To follow Jesus and to be healed of my brokenness so I can serve him better.

Thank you so much.

Your sister in Christ,

Gillian
 
Hail Mary,
Full of grace,
The Lord is with Thee.
Blessed art Thou amoungst women,
And blessed is the fruit of Thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners,
Now and at the hour of our death,
Amen
 
hi, if i might reply, today,try-prayer is a vocation/my reply here suggests the language of human love transfers to explain intimacy with God (divine love) being related to prayer…being persuasive that pleasure centers of the brain might compare to prayer/as the challenge is really lived though-to chase out fear/ the heart feels, the mind thinks/ prayer might be so healing that those two are at peace…even to rest the body.

As per the following source-this document explains love-in human terms/
I relate the terms and natural affections of human love-to divine love/or in reverse:
In a suprising irony, divine love seems to be expressed in a conclusive way-in the same terms of human romantic love/
Divine love might be more familiar to how the saints prayed and expressed love/ so in contemplative prayer-one does enter into an intimacy with the Creator; for further investigation…there is a tug of war between the heart and mind in that moment before contemplative prayer…bringing up more questions than answers…
Personally-I will add-prayer is like states of water, either frozen ice or steam or water.
Prayer can be so profound to change us-that what is frozen is thawed, so to prayer heals; prayer lets us have an intimacy with God; the scary part is only momentary, there can be an instant change; so, the soul, the heart-begin to exchange love, integrating human capacity to express love to God, a spectrum of feelings to melt resistance to divine love/ there is more to prayer than words express/ Notice as you attempt contemplation-that as water changes states-you soul changes-Prayer is a process of love, itself. As water is still water-the soul is still the soul. Prayer will allow you to discover states and processes, being so profound in the experience to chase out fear. I believe that even the body is healed and (re) ordered. In the great exchange of heaven and earth-God loves firstly-we return it.
What is mature prayer?
How does contemplative prayer reduce fear?
Are fears diminished in deeper prayer?
Does intimacy with God offer solutions, when otherwise loneliness is a suffering?
Is suffering something the saints living through? Or do they discover divine love to such a degree that suffering stops?
Is suffering just a moral quandary for instance to avoid behaviors means to be moral?
Or does divine love heal the heart to such a profound state-so that after the intimacy with the Holy Spirit-can positive behaviors replace the immoral behaviors?

elainehatfield.com/ch113.pdfTHE NEUROPSYCHOLOGY OF PASSIONATE LOVE

Elaine Hatfield and Richard L. Rapson
University of Hawaii
Excerpt:
DEFINING PASSIONATE LOVE

Passionate love is a powerful emotional state. It has been defined as:
A state of intense longing for union with another. Passionate love is a complex functional
whole including appraisals or appreciations, subjective feelings, expressions, patterned
physiological processes, action tendencies, and instrumental behaviors. Reciprocated love
(union with the other) is associated with fulfillment and ecstasy. Unrequited love (separation)
is associated with feelings of emptiness, anxiety, and despair (Hatfield & Rapson, 1993, p. 5).
People in all cultures recognize the power of passionate love. In South Indian Tamil
families, for example, a person who falls head-over-heels in love with another is said to be
suffering from mayakkam—dizziness, confusion, intoxication, and delusion. The wild hopes
and despairs of love are thought to “mix you up” (Trawick, 1990).
Excerpt:
The Ancients

Since antiquity, court physicians and social observers have searched for methods to
detect “lovesickness.” In the 2nd
century A. D. Appian of Alexandria (1899) recounted this
“case history.”
During the last years of his life, King Seleucus, appointed his son Antiochus King of
upper Asia in place of himself. Appian notes:

If this seems noble and kingly on his part, even nobler and wiser was his behavior in
reference to his son’s falling in love and his self-restraint in suffering; for Antiochus was in
love with Stratonice, the wife of Seleucus, his own step-mother, who had already borne a
child to Seleucus. Recognizing the wickedness of this passion, Antiochus did nothing wrong,
nor did he show his feelings, but he fell sick, took to his bed, and longed for death. Nor could
the celebrated physician, Erasistratus, who was serving Seleucus at a very high salary, form
any diagnosis of his malady. At length, observing his body was free from all the symptoms of
disease, he conjectured that this was some condition of the mind, through which the body is
often strengthened or weakened by sympathy. Grief, anger, and other passions disclose
themselves; love only is concealed by the modest. As Antiochus would confess nothing when
the physician asked him in confidence, he took a seat by his side and watched the changes of
his body to see how he was affected by each person who entered his room. He found that
when others came the patient was all the time weakening and wasting away at a uniform pace,
but when Stratonice came to visit him his mind was greatly agitated by the struggles of
modesty and conscience, and he remained silent. But his body in spite of himself became
more vigorous and lively, and when she went away he became weaker again (pp. 317-318).
 
od our Heavenly Father,
through Your Son Jesus,
our Victim High Priest,
True Prophet,
and Sovereign King.

Pour forth the Power
of Your Holy Spirit
upon us and open our hearts.
On Your great mercy,
through the motherly mediation
of the Blessed Virgin Mary, Our Queen,
forgive our sinfulness,
heal our brokenness,
and renew our hearts
in the faith, and peace, and love,
and joy of Your Kingdom,
that we may be one in You.
 
I would start with one thing at a time. Say the audition to sing…think of all the people you will minister to just by raising your voice in song. Do not hide your talent. God will give you the confidence and strength. You are loved by many. Praying for you to find a job and a place of your own.
 
Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

†

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

†

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

†
 
Holy Michael the Archangel defend us in the day of battle.
Be our safeguard against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray,
and do Thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host,
by the Power of God,
thrust down to hell satan and all the wicked spirits,
who wander through the world for the ruin of souls.
Amen.

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession and was left forsaken. Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you I come, before you I stand, a sorrowful sinner. Despise not my words, O Mother of the Word, but in your mercy, hear and answer me.
Amen
 
O Merciful Immaculate Heart of Mary, please pray for Gillian now and at the hour of her death. Amen.
 
realitybless said:
Hello my Brothers and Sisters in Christ,

I’m new here so this is hard for me to come out and ask for prayers but if any of you can please pray for me, it would mean so much to me.

I’ve been going through a lot emotionally for the past 13 years since I lost my mom. Been in and out of the hospital many times and now I haven’t been able to work for awhile due to this. I was engaged and my fiancé left me after 6 years to be with a girl who he got pregnant months after we broke up and married her. For 2 years, it was hard enough for me just to get out of the house and be with people again. I’ve been so depressed but been trying to hide it behind this smile I put on my face.

It wasn’t until 2 years ago, I was invited to go to confession from a friend and it changed everything. I was invited to go to a charismatic prayer healing prayer group at the parish. I’ve been going there ever since. I’ve joined the music ministry there. I’ve made amazing friends that have helped me so much in this journey with the Lord. I was asked to become a youth leader, but I felt like I wasn’t ready and I couldn’t do it with feeling so down. I’ve been asked to sing and audition for praise festivals coming up and I’ve been scared to do that, now I’ve been asked to help with the prayer teams pray with people and start doing street evangelization. Long story short, I AM STILL AFRAID. I still feel so broken but I know the Lord is healing me with every step I take with him. I’m in church almost everyday now at mass, adoration and prayer groups.*** I just want to take the first step out of this “boat” like Peter did. I want to step out onto the water towards Jesus and not to be afraid anymore to serve him! I love him so much!***

All I ask my friends, is that you say a prayer for me if you can. To help me renounce this spirit of fear in my life and not be afraid anymore because of my past. Please pray I find my own place soon as well and start working again and that I can walk through all the doors the Lord has opened for me. That I surrender myself completely to him and whatever he is calling me to do. I pray to fall in love again and get married and have a family but if not, I just want to keep loving Jesus for the rest of my life. To follow Jesus and to be healed of my brokenness so I can serve him better.

Thank you so much.

Your sister in Christ,

Gillian
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Praying for you.
 
Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be Thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us each day our daily bread,
and forgive our trespasses,
as we forgive those who tresspass against us,
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Amen

God bless you and keep you. Amen.
 
Hail Mary,
Full of grace,
The Lord is with Thee.
Blessed art Thou amoungst women,
And blessed is the fruit of Thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners,
Now and at the hour of our death,
Amen
 
Thank you so much for all the prayers friends. I am humbled and it really gives me a sense of comfort that we’re not on this journey alone.

Keeping you all in my prayers.

Your sister in Christ,

Gillian
 
acadiANNA said:
I would start with one thing at a time. Say the audition to sing…think of all the people you will minister to just by raising your voice in song. Do not hide your talent. God will give you the confidence and strength. You are loved by many. Praying for you to find a job and a place of your own.
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Thank you for the prayers and yes someone at the prayer group I go to said the same thing. To focus on one thing at a time. I’m praying to be able to audition for the festival coming up. On Tuesday we’re going to be singing for the homeless and then starting street evangelization where I’m going to be singing too. I think it’s a great way to start 🙂

Someone once told me, God didn’t give me a voice to keep to myself but to share it with others!

Blessings,

Gillian
 
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and in the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
 
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now, and in the hour of our death. Amen.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.
 
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