Thank you all, I have 1 more request as well. Please pray for my family who is in dire need of God’s love. My wife and i have been thru a very difficult situation and there is still some animosity on behalf of my wife. She feel completely abandonded in our marriage and feels that she can not trust any man any longer. During the first 3 years of our marriage, I have been selfish, egotistical, i have humiliated her and have not treated her as my wife. She feels very discouraged about my change now because of the many times that I have fallen while trying to get back up in my life and follow the narrow road of salvation. I have dissapointed my wife many times and now she can not have the confidence and trust to know that I will be victorious with God’s help. Before, I did not see that it was selfishness and my ego that kept my enslave to my own sins. I have lived a very difficult childhood, with experiencing the divorce of my parents, being abused physically and being put down emotionally by my step father, feeling worthlless growing up in my life and passing on my feeling of guilt and despair to the women I love. I feel that I have wronged my wife so badly and have destroyed her mentally and emotionally, that it is getitng difficult for us to be a married couple again. Now that I have realized that it was my own ego and selfishness that was keeping me enslaved to my past, I have learned how to cope with these feelings and ask for love, chastity, unselfsihness, and care from our Lord. I have seen many changes in me and now I only pray that my marriage is saved. I know that things can change with the love of God. I have received the answer to my many prayers from Him, I know that I have to change my ways, let myself die in order to live once again, so my marriage can once again have new life.
Please brothers and sisters in Christ, I ask for your help in prayers in our dire need of renewed faith and love. I dont want my children to suffer or go thru what I have gone thru.