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mike2112
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My name is Mike and I’m new to the forums but my main intention of making an account on here is to ask for help in prayers. Im 18 years old and I have gone through an unimaginable amount of pain, loneliness, depression, betrayal and hatred ever since I started to spiritually grow. My own family isn’t too close to me as they were before and seem to care less and less about me. I know they don’t love me that much, but I am fine with that because I have gotten closer to God and the precious loving heart of Jesus through the heartbreaking and emotional and mental isolation I have been in. Despite being hated upon and laughed at for my faith, I use this suffering as a sacrifice in prayer so they can be saved. But as a teenager I feel as if I am losing my attachments with worldly things and at the same time I feel out of place. Everyday I am going through a constant battle within me and Satan thinks he can kill me and take my soul. He’s trying to tempt me to hate and be angry at people for the smallest of things. He makes fun of me saying that I am an outcast to society. I know this might sound strange, but I truly believe that I am being attacked demonically and there’s no other explanation as to why im being tempted to commit horrible acts. With the strength of God I have been trying to destroy all of these thoughts and im keeping my self controlled, but I am being worn down. I have been in isolation and have been ‘sleeping’ on my bed for literally 20 hours a day sometimes because I cant bear the pain that I sometimes get from my family and others. I am losing my self confidence and the devil is telling me that im worthless and ugly and have no talents and no friends and no one who cares about me. I feel kind of embarrassed explaining a bit of my life here, but it has come to the point where I need alot of prayers from my family here. I want to be delivered from any evil spirits trying to take control over me and make me sin, and I know your prayers will really help. I went to mass today and I broke down before receiving communion. All I have is Jesus
