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Hi, my name is Michael and I joined this forum months a go. This is my first post. I don’t know where to start, I guess I need to state my reason first. I’ve been joining several church orgs, and my co - members thought i was spiritually fit, but deep inside of me i’m full of rust and totally junk. I’ve been struggling from some kind of a very not so good habit. I was chained by lustful things. First is, I wanted to quit masturbating, I’m already 26 but still keep on doing it. I’m trying no to do this, I survived for a month but then i find myself in a relapse. I just can’t quit doing it. I’m already poisoned with such immorality. I keep on praying asking God’s forgiveness, but then I also keep on messing up things. This made me hate myself, it does not only affect me but also my relationship with my girlfriend. I was confused if i really love her or just infatuated by her because of such intimate desire. I’m already lost. I feel like clouded. I know God is so good to care about us and to forgive us no matter what, that’s what i hate myself most. I just keep on messing up over and over. I even can think well sometimes, even i tried to avoid those things that will instigate me, i’m just to weak to stand against it. There are times that i felt ashamed to face God asking for forgiveness, just keep on hating myself.

Just want to let everything go. I’m not sure what will others will say about me after reading this but there’s no one else i can share about this. I was influenced by lustful things as early as 8 I think. And when i was about 13 or 14, i was sexually abused by my gay cousins, and even my uncle that time. At first i tried to resist but lately i just realized i already find the pleasure of doing such things. I even molested my girl cousins and my aunt. These things are nightmare, it keeps on haunting me. I just want to get away from this things bu i really can’t. The reasons I attend and joined various church orgs, because i thought it’s my only ticket to get away from these nightmare but in the end, i’m still chained with this curse. I really want to get free but now i don’t know how. I’m still hoping that i will find my way back to the right path. Bro and sisters I am heartily asking for your passion to pray for me.

And also, please pray for me and my girlfriend. It’s been 3 months that we got lots of arguments. I’m trying to tell myself that I should fight for her, but this made me more confused either i really love her or just being infatuated. Above all, I still believed on genuine love, but I just can’t find it within me. Please Pray me. Thank you and God Bless.
 
I just said a prayer for you. You will be included in my rosaries. God bless you.
 
I pray that God would help you and heal you in all areas. Amen. :signofcross:

St. Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the Devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray,
and do thou,
O Prince of the heavenly hosts,
by the power of God,
thrust into hell Satan,
and all the evil spirits,
who prowl about the world
seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.

One other thought… Confession is a sacrament of healing. Please consider going if you haven’t been in a while. Divine Mercy Sunday is coming up next Sunday. Meditate on how infinite Jesus’ love and mercy is for you. May God bless you with His peace.
 
bizcuit87 said:
Hi, my name is Michael and I joined this forum months a go. This is my first post. I don’t know where to start, I guess I need to state my reason first. I’ve been joining several church orgs, and my co - members thought i was spiritually fit, but deep inside of me i’m full of rust and totally junk. I’ve been struggling from some kind of a very not so good habit. I was chained by lustful things. First is, I wanted to quit masturbating, I’m already 26 but still keep on doing it. I’m trying no to do this, I survived for a month but then i find myself in a relapse. I just can’t quit doing it. I’m already poisoned with such immorality. I keep on praying asking God’s forgiveness, but then I also keep on messing up things. This made me hate myself, it does not only affect me but also my relationship with my girlfriend. I was confused if i really love her or just infatuated by her because of such intimate desire. I’m already lost. I feel like clouded. I know God is so good to care about us and to forgive us no matter what, that’s what i hate myself most. I just keep on messing up over and over. I even can think well sometimes, even i tried to avoid those things that will instigate me, i’m just to weak to stand against it. There are times that i felt ashamed to face God asking for forgiveness, just keep on hating myself.

Just want to let everything go. I’m not sure what will others will say about me after reading this but there’s no one else i can share about this. I was influenced by lustful things as early as 8 I think. And when i was about 13 or 14, i was sexually abused by my gay cousins, and even my uncle that time. At first i tried to resist but lately i just realized i already find the pleasure of doing such things. I even molested my girl cousins and my aunt. These things are nightmare, it keeps on haunting me. I just want to get away from this things bu i really can’t. The reasons I attend and joined various church orgs, because i thought it’s my only ticket to get away from these nightmare but in the end, i’m still chained with this curse. I really want to get free but now i don’t know how. I’m still hoping that i will find my way back to the right path. Bro and sisters I am heartily asking for your passion to pray for me.

And also, please pray for me and my girlfriend. It’s been 3 months that we got lots of arguments. I’m trying to tell myself that I should fight for her, but this made me more confused either i really love her or just being infatuated. Above all, I still believed on genuine love, but I just can’t find it within me. Please Pray me. Thank you and God Bless.
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I wrote your name in my daily rosary intentions.
 
You are not full of rust, God does not make rusty things, but makes us perfect, its our doing and original sin that makes us do things displeasing to the Lord, but that does not mean we cannot change, you have to first think positive about yourself like God Loves Me as Me, have you tried to make an appointment with a priest for Confession and discuss what you said here, the reason why I say an appointment as it would be a long chat in the Confessional if there were a lot of people waiting, please pick up the courage talk to a priest and start afresh, some of the guys on this Forum would be the best to give you help and advise as a woman am no use in this matter at all - see what I mean I can also be useless to giving you good advice. Pray to Our Lady to help you in this matter, when tempted try if you can to think of something else.

I will pray for your to night that Our Lady’s cloak will be around your shoulders helping you to become more chaste.

God Bless and Walk with the Lord.
 
bizcuit87 said:
Hi, my name is Michael and I joined this forum months a go. This is my first post. I don’t know where to start, I guess I need to state my reason first. I’ve been joining several church orgs, and my co - members thought i was spiritually fit, but deep inside of me i’m full of rust and totally junk. I’ve been struggling from some kind of a very not so good habit. I was chained by lustful things. First is, I wanted to quit masturbating, I’m already 26 but still keep on doing it. I’m trying no to do this, I survived for a month but then i find myself in a relapse. I just can’t quit doing it. I’m already poisoned with such immorality. I keep on praying asking God’s forgiveness, but then I also keep on messing up things. This made me hate myself, it does not only affect me but also my relationship with my girlfriend. I was confused if i really love her or just infatuated by her because of such intimate desire. I’m already lost. I feel like clouded. I know God is so good to care about us and to forgive us no matter what, that’s what i hate myself most. I just keep on messing up over and over. I even can think well sometimes, even i tried to avoid those things that will instigate me, i’m just to weak to stand against it. There are times that i felt ashamed to face God asking for forgiveness, just keep on hating myself.

Just want to let everything go. I’m not sure what will others will say about me after reading this but there’s no one else i can share about this. I was influenced by lustful things as early as 8 I think. And when i was about 13 or 14, i was sexually abused by my gay cousins, and even my uncle that time. At first i tried to resist but lately i just realized i already find the pleasure of doing such things. I even molested my girl cousins and my aunt. These things are nightmare, it keeps on haunting me. I just want to get away from this things bu i really can’t. The reasons I attend and joined various church orgs, because i thought it’s my only ticket to get away from these nightmare but in the end, i’m still chained with this curse. I really want to get free but now i don’t know how. I’m still hoping that i will find my way back to the right path. Bro and sisters I am heartily asking for your passion to pray for me.

And also, please pray for me and my girlfriend. It’s been 3 months that we got lots of arguments. I’m trying to tell myself that I should fight for her, but this made me more confused either i really love her or just being infatuated. Above all, I still believed on genuine love, but I just can’t find it within me. Please Pray me. Thank you and God Bless.
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Had you ever tried counseling? Well, according to what you said, you’ve suffered a lot of abuse and trauma. I’ve heard that it’s not all that uncommon for people who were abused to continue this cycle of abuse. However, know that there is also hope, that there are treatments, help, and support.

Do you have health insurance? If you do, it might cover some visits with a psychologist where you could talk out some of these issues. I am mentioning this because I believe it is something you might benefit from.

I think it’d be preferable to try to get a counselor who would at least be accepting of your faith and spiritual issues should you decide to one day pursue this route.

You are not alone. Unfortunately, in our time, this is getting quite common. As to sodomy, our Church considers it one of only 4 crimes which actually cry to heaven for vengeance, so this is no small thing.

It’s also not uncommon for rape victims to enjoy rape at some point, and there is often guilt accompanying that, as well.

I believe in prayer, but I think it would be prudent to also use other means available. If you haven’t tried counseling, I really hope you’d consider giving it a try.

Praying.
 
Praying for you. Go to St. Michael and Jesus, Mary and Joseph through prayer. They will help. Go frequently to Confession and ask the priest for help. He is there to help, not huge. Find a good Catholic psychologist to help you. Be at peace. Pray the Rosary. God loves you. God bless you and Happy Easter.
 
Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

†

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

†

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

†
 
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Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Glory Be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
As it was in the beginning is now ever shall be world without end
Amen.

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thy intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy, hear and answer me. Amen

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Hi everyone,

Thank you very much for your advice and prayers. It boost my confidence and hope that i will surpass this burden. Just went to attend the mass for the easter sunday celebration. I wen to confession. After I confessed everything, the pries told asked my why i went to the confession since I already enchained my self with such pleasure. I told him that I am guilty and wanted to quit but i can’t. He told me that it’s nonsense because aside from recognizing my sins i did not do anything or didn’t push myself to to get free from this pit. I think the priest is right. All i did is just share other what I feel. But not trying to solve anything. Seems like I just want others to pity on me. Though I tried to join some church orgs, this is because I thought it will wash out my my sins. I really don’t know where to start. I am very confused. And also I am having an argument my girlfriend this makes more weary. Thanks for the prayers. I believed with great faith that everything will be fine and i will able to see myself whole again. Thank you so much and Happy Easter to all of you. God Bless
 
Michael, I bless you with the special blessing of our Blessed Mother. May the power of the Holy Spirit come upon you and give you peace.
 
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