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slyboots
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As the site says “It appears you have not posted in our forums in quite some time.” I have not. I used to do so a lot. I was learning the way of apologetics and did not doubt Our Lord at all. The saints and the Blessed Mother were close to my heart.
I will not say I lost my faith. But somehow I mislaid it. I have snatches of it which appear at random times. The pain they cause me is shuffled away quickly as I distract myself with worldly rubbish.
My marriage is what I believe triggered this. Suffice it to say that after 39 years, he has lost interest in me and it is a stumbling block for me. He has not treated me like a wife in 6 years or more. Neither does he respond to me physically or otherwise. He is a good man, good provider, loving grandfather, and caring father. We have discussed this a number of times, with a counselor and without. As he pushed me away, I found things to do not including him. They now fill my life. Mass is not one of them. Along with the other problems I developed social anxiety and panic attacks. Now almost all the time I am home. I do not choose to leave it much. It is too frightening.
I know I should thank God that he still lives and that our marriage is intact. But often there are times I am not thankful for this at all.
I know I need to go to confession. I need to straighten out the mess in my life.
So, as far as prayer intentions go: Please pray for my faith to return to me. Please pray for my marriage. Please prayer for me, a sinner in need of her Savior. Thank you.
I will not say I lost my faith. But somehow I mislaid it. I have snatches of it which appear at random times. The pain they cause me is shuffled away quickly as I distract myself with worldly rubbish.
My marriage is what I believe triggered this. Suffice it to say that after 39 years, he has lost interest in me and it is a stumbling block for me. He has not treated me like a wife in 6 years or more. Neither does he respond to me physically or otherwise. He is a good man, good provider, loving grandfather, and caring father. We have discussed this a number of times, with a counselor and without. As he pushed me away, I found things to do not including him. They now fill my life. Mass is not one of them. Along with the other problems I developed social anxiety and panic attacks. Now almost all the time I am home. I do not choose to leave it much. It is too frightening.
I know I should thank God that he still lives and that our marriage is intact. But often there are times I am not thankful for this at all.
I know I need to go to confession. I need to straighten out the mess in my life.
So, as far as prayer intentions go: Please pray for my faith to return to me. Please pray for my marriage. Please prayer for me, a sinner in need of her Savior. Thank you.

