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Hi everybody, I have been struggling alot lately with anxiety and depression I think alot of it has stemmed from scrupulosity, I constantly evaluate everything I do, and beat myself up over the smallest actions if I percieve them to be sinful. Im getting worn out by this, and I dont have the strength to deal with all of these things. I feel depressed almost all the time, and am always on edge with my anxiety, and im experiencing great fatigue. I just came off of a vacation which only escalated my problem for some reason, I feel worse and worse everyday. Im just trying to find an answer as to why this is happening to me. I resolved to live a holy life after I made a big confession this past Easter of all the things I had done wrong in the previous 2 years. God has gotten rid of the impure addictions I used to have and I havent commited such sins since that confession ( I have been to confession in between though.) Ever since then Ive completely turned my life around, I pray so much more than I used to, I have been educating myself in the faith… etc. The point im trying to make is that I didnt start having all of these problems until I started to try and live a moral life and I feel somewhat discouraged by this. I try to reconcile my sufferings by looking to the Dark night of the soul, but I feel like im flattering myself by thinking that I would be worthy to endure such a thing. I feel like my cross is getting heavier and heavier, and instead of purifying me through my suffering, it is crushing me. I would really appreciate your prayers, Im in a great need of them.
Thank you
Thank you
