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BillTheSlink
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I don’t mean to be a near occasion of sin so I will try to use as delicate of verbiage as I can. Since I was 11 I have suffered from unwanted same sex attraction. From my youth until I returned to the Lord in my mid-twenties I wallowed in that behavior with other people and impurity by myself. When I returned to the Lord as a Protestant back then, about 13 years ago, I slowly extricated myself with the help of the Lord from activity with other people, but even after converting in 2011 I have struggled with impure thoughts and actions alone and also with pornography. Although I always repented and made use of confession, I got serious about remaining perfectly chaste this Lent because I do love the Lord and don’t want to hurt Him anymore. It was smooth sailing until some serious trials came up last night in the form of memories. Thankfully through prayer to The Lord, asking The Blessed Mother, St. Micheal, St. Dominic Salvio, St. John Bosco, and my Guardian Angel to intercede for me I made it through and did not sinning by giving consent to the thoughts or taking further action on the trial. I am just worried about what I face up ahead. I believe my problem with the same sex attraction and attachment, if not addiction, to impurity with myself is rooted in immaturity of personality. Pray I will both be strengthened to control my thoughts and actions and that I will mature emotionally into the man that I am.
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