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I am seeing a neurosurgeon on December 6th. I know that I am going to need at least one surgery to fuse my first 3 or 4 (or perhaps even more) vertebrae in my neck. There is also a chance that I have a Chiari malformation; basically my cerebellum and brain stem could be herniating out of the back of my skull, through the hole that is supposed to be just for the spinal cord. The bottom of my spinal cord could also be attached and creating tension all they way up my spinal cord.
The surgery to fix the Chiari is one of the most potentially dangerous, and one of the most painful and difficult surgeries to recover from. As I deal with a pain on a daily basis, the surgery pain does not scare me so much, but since I have a few other underlying disorders (including a collagen deficiency, which affects my skin, muscles, bones, ligaments, blood vessels… basically anything with collagen in it, which is important for healing from surgery) I am considered high risk.
I have been trying not to worry, but well, I’m human, and humans worry when they are facing any type of surgery, and the riskier it is, the more they worry. However, I have been trying to remember Matthew 6. "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat (or drink), or about your body, what you will wear… Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span?" But again, since I am human, I am too quick to forget that. So I guess that would be another good prayer for me; that I would not just remember those verses, but to actually live them.
The surgery to fix the Chiari is one of the most potentially dangerous, and one of the most painful and difficult surgeries to recover from. As I deal with a pain on a daily basis, the surgery pain does not scare me so much, but since I have a few other underlying disorders (including a collagen deficiency, which affects my skin, muscles, bones, ligaments, blood vessels… basically anything with collagen in it, which is important for healing from surgery) I am considered high risk.
I have been trying not to worry, but well, I’m human, and humans worry when they are facing any type of surgery, and the riskier it is, the more they worry. However, I have been trying to remember Matthew 6. "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat (or drink), or about your body, what you will wear… Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span?" But again, since I am human, I am too quick to forget that. So I guess that would be another good prayer for me; that I would not just remember those verses, but to actually live them.
