Please pray, I am lost and don't know what to do

[courtney3177]

I am struggling with depression and don’t know what to do or where to go. I’m supposed to be on meds for this as it’s been a life long struggle for me but I don’t have the money to get it. I don’t know who to turn to. I have prayed and continue to pray for strength every day. I have 4 children and don’t want them to see me this way. I’m the backbone of our family. Ending my life keeps creeping into my mind and I pray for the strength to move forward and not have these thoughts. I know they are wrong and hope and and pray that I have the strength not to act on these evil thoughts. I don’t even want to get out of bed but my children fortunatly drive me to do otherwise. My husband doesn’t seem to care or even want to listen to me. Please help, I need someone to talk to.

 

[Trishie]

Courtney I do understand something of what you’re going through and will be praying for you. It’s good that you’re reaching out to us.

With love Trishie

 

[the_phoenix]

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen

 

[strngrnrth]

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.
Amen

Amen.

 

[Galilea]

“Eternal Father, I offer Thee, the Wounds of our Lord Jesus Christ to heal those of our soul”
“My Jesus, pardon and mercy, by the merits of Thy Holy Wounds”
Amen

Your hubby is probably depresed too, he probably will not speak about it. I can tell you what healed me…I started every moning writing in a journal, all the things I was greateful for. I would obligate myself to do it, and I would only write positive things that I was greateful for. I would also read the psalms, underline the verses that would give me inner strength and I would write those verses over and over, until I memorised them. Little by little, I came to realise how blessed I am, how much more the Lord our God has given me, over so many more of his children around the world. My list of thanksgiving, just gets longer and longer everyday, leaving in the road the few minor things that made me sad. Which were actually, very few compared to all my blessings…and can I tell you a thing! From childhood I always dreamed of being a mother and having a big catholic family, which I would take to church, offer them up to the service of the Lord and help form them as great pillars of the church and society . But it was not the Lord’s will, I was not able to have them , but I live in such joy now and thanksgiving, that I have no time left to miss what I don’t have. My mind is now way too busy thinking of what I have to be greteful for . My biggest thank you is, being alive to be loved by God! second; being born in this bautiful democratic country (not perfect, but then again only God is perfect ), third, having the time to pray, being able to pray and conteplate the greatness of our Loving Creator, and on and on… Take some time during the day, to contemplate the sky alone for some time…then you will be able to notice that God your Loving Father, has never stopped creating beautiful things for you, just to make you happy. You will see that the sky changes in beauty, from instant to instant, it is an open space where the Lord our God is ALWAYS painting on, so hat we can notice how He constantly is creating beauty for us, just to show us His Love. He Loves you , just start ignoring the negative of THINGS and Society and turn you attention to all the blessings He showers on you and your family constantly. Joy will return to stay and all those around you, little by little will start to get influenced by your happiness!!! Your hubby will start feeling much better too . God bless you, and keep posting here, this is like a family for you.

 

[marlap2]

Courtenay,
You are not alone. God is by your side, and as well, many of us have experienced this darkness at some point in our life, and recognize the paim, and in compassion (suffering with) are praying with and for you.

I have found consolation in reading the Psalms.

May our Lord reveal His abiding love for you in a very special way, and show you all the blessings that surround you, especially in your children.

Jesus, we TRUST in YOU.

God Bless
Marla

 

[Gail_OCDS]

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+JMJTJ+

***Please do speak with your doctor &/or priest to get support and counseling at least; ***
they may have other options for your treatment.

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Your intentions will be in my prayers.

Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion inexhaustible, look kindly upon us, and increase Your mercy in us, so that in difficult moments we might not despair, nor become despondent, but with great confidence, submit ourselves to Your Holy Will, which is Love and Mercy itself. Amen

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[Indyann]

Praying for you.

 

[tGette]

I went through 12 years of depression, so I can also relate, but you have a lot more on your plate than I ever have. God bless you for your perseverance.
Father,
Your child needs your help! She is using all the strength she has to continue in this world and to avoid what she knows is against Your will. Please strengthen her and heal her. Cast the devil’s influence out of her life and pull her out of her depression.

She needs this help from you because she is Your child and she is caring for four more of Your children. Look kindly upon her faith and do not allow her to suffer any longer.

Jesus carried the weight of the sin of the world on His cross, please carry this burden away from her and her family.

Through the power of the Holy Spirit, strengthen her, her husband and her children. Help them to fully submit to You and please grace them with Your mercy and do not let them live life in such despair and often times feeling forsaken.

Please practice Your mercy in their lives Lord!

Amen, Amen!
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[Aydan]

I will be praying for you and also check with your medicines manufacturer a lot of them have programs for people who cannot afford their medications.

 

[betra2000]

Hail Mary full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus. Holy Mary mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen

 

[courtney3177]

Thank you all for your prayers. I had a good day today and am hopeful for tomorrow. I can’t put into words how grateful I am for all of you who take time out of your day to care about someone you don’t personally know. I find great comfort in knowing that there will always be someone willing to listen.

God bless you all.

 

[Sam_Maloney]

No, God bless YOU.

When depression gets this bad, it rarely gets better on it’s own, even with prayer.

So my prayer is that you will find help locally and in person, and not just a pill: that’s like an asprin for a broken leg-- a good start, but not a cure.

Use your good days to look for the help you’ll need on your bad days…

I know: I’ve been there [and still go back for a visit every now and then].

 

[onaquest]

Dear Lord, bless her as she carries her cross. You yourself told us to pick up our cross and walked before us carrying your own instrument of torture and death. Bless her now as she carries this illness with her throughout all of her days. I ask for a miracle, I ask for your generosity please get her the medication that she needs. THank you sweet Lord for hearing our prayers for her. THank you for your love. Amen

 

[Renato]

Hi Courtney,

I’m sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time. Trust the lord and let him fill you with hope and faith in times when you are feeling depressed, he always does.

I’m praying for you.

Prayerfully,

Renato

 

[rebusrms]

my heart breaks for you. as some have said you are not alone. A lot of us suffer from depression. I say this not to trivialize your pain but to encourage you to know other are praying for you. Depression can be dealt with. I’m sorry your husband doesn’t feel the need to let you talk and debrief. Please feel free to debrief to us. Many are willing to listen. I’m willing to listen. Please continue to fight the urges to take your life. You are so strong for being able to keep them at bay. I really wish you would find a therapist or psychiatrist to talk to and to work out a medication regimen. A lot of doctors have free samples or could arrange with a company to get rebates and discounts for meds. IN closing, its not easy but one can contiue to live and live abundantley while fighting the fight of depression.

 

[kparlet]

May the Lord use your children as His instruments to guide you into tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day, and so on and so on. Be strong for your children, you are in my prayers.

 

[txstm]

Courtney, you and your family will be in my prayers.

 

[sskelly]

Courtney,
I would see a holostic doctor, a naturopath or whatever you have in your area. You need to pay attention to what you are eating and how it affects you. Cut out the caffeine, soda pop, sugar, and all the bad stuff including meat if you can. Dont smoke. These mood-altering meds are dispensed so casually without regard for the terrible side effects that creep up on you and before you know it you are worse than ever. I’ve read a lot about this. (I wouldn’t take them. I believe it’s the surest way to fry a person’s brain.) I agree with writing your blessings down daily, writing in a journal. Good luck. Will pray.

 

[Belle10]

Father,
Your child needs your help! She is using all the strength she has to continue in this world and to avoid what she knows is against Your will. Please strengthen her and heal her. Cast the devil’s influence out of her life and pull her out of her depression.

She needs this help from you because she is Your child and she is caring for four more of Your children. Look kindly upon her faith and do not allow her to suffer any longer.

Jesus carried the weight of the sin of the world on His cross, please carry this burden away from her and her family.

Through the power of the Holy Spirit, strengthen her, her husband and her children. Help them to fully submit to You and please grace them with Your mercy and do not let them live life in such despair and often times feeling forsaken.

Please practice Your mercy in their lives Lord!

Amen, Amen!
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Amen!

Courtney, I will remember you in my chaplet of Divine Mercy later today and in my Rosary tomorrow morning. May God bless you and keep you always. :hug1:

PS - you might want to pray this prayer, which is from the Diary of St. Faustina (see my signature for more information):

Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to your holy will, which is love and mercy itself. Amen.

Below are a few of my favorite entries from St. Faustina’s Diary. I highly recommend you read it, little by little, when you can. It has been a wonderful gift in my life and I’m sure it will be in yours too. :hug1:

“In the evening, Jesus gave me the subject for meditation. At the first moment, my heart was filled with fear and joy. Then I pressed myself close to His Heart, and the fear vanished; only joy remained. I felt entirely like a child of God, and the Lord said… ‘Fear nothing…Before I made the world, I loved you with the love your heart is experiencing today and, throughout the centuries, My love will never change.’”

(Jesus said “…there is no way to heaven except the way of the cross. I followed it first. You must learn that it is the shortest way… I am giving you a share in those sufferings because of My special love for you and in view of the high degree of holiness I am intending for you in Heaven. A suffering soul is closer to My heart.”

From the Conversation of the Merciful God with a Despairing Soul:
Jesus: What joy fills My Heart when you return to Me. Because you are weak, I take you in My arms and carry you to the home of My Father.
Soul: (as if awakening, asks fearfully): Is it possible that there is yet mercy for me?
Jesus: There is, My child. You have a special claim on My mercy. Let it act in your poor soul; let the rays of grace enter your soul; they bring with them light, warmth, and life.
Soul: But fear fills me at the thought of my sins, and this terrible fear moves me to doubt Your goodness.
Jesus: My child, all your sins have not wounded My Heart as painfully as your present lack of trust does - that after so many efforts of My love and mercy, you should still doubt My goodness…Tell Me all, My child, hide nothing from Me because My loving Heart, the Heart of Your Best Friend is listening to you."