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Bulbasaur05
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I have been wounded deeply, not just in an emotional way, but in a way that is very spiritual as well. It has put some big tears in the fabric of my faith.
I have had much desolation and trial (mother being murdered for one) but this is the only one that God seems completely absent for. This is the only one that has wounded me into my spiritual heart, and it has left rotting festering puss into the depths on my soul .
I have gone to adoration everyday, volunteered, confession, received the Sacraments, but no luck. I am on the verge of cutting myself. I really need prayers. I thought since I have already been through so much trial that another one would be cake, but the nature of things done and they way the directly affected my spirituality have wounded me in the deepest places.
The person affecting me seems like a god, they have so much power to wound me, and even in spite of prayer and my begging and pleading to God there has not been deliverance and barely a peep from Him outside “forgive.” But this is the most silent/distant/cold I have experienced God in a trial.
Please. please. pleeeeaaaassseee pray for healing in this desolation.
I have had much desolation and trial (mother being murdered for one) but this is the only one that God seems completely absent for. This is the only one that has wounded me into my spiritual heart, and it has left rotting festering puss into the depths on my soul .
I have gone to adoration everyday, volunteered, confession, received the Sacraments, but no luck. I am on the verge of cutting myself. I really need prayers. I thought since I have already been through so much trial that another one would be cake, but the nature of things done and they way the directly affected my spirituality have wounded me in the deepest places.
The person affecting me seems like a god, they have so much power to wound me, and even in spite of prayer and my begging and pleading to God there has not been deliverance and barely a peep from Him outside “forgive.” But this is the most silent/distant/cold I have experienced God in a trial.
Please. please. pleeeeaaaassseee pray for healing in this desolation.
