A
ATryingCatholic
Guest
This is my first post so here it goes.
As my username suggests, I am a trying Catholic. This isn’t self-pity or self-deprecation as some might interpret it as - it’s the truth. I try so hard to go to Mass, to obey the commandments, and to lead a life worthy of our Savior who died on the cross for our sins. But every time I embark upon a new journey of faith, I stumble back into a state of mortal sin. I know what I do is wrong yet I do it anyway. I’m addicted to porn, I think adulterous thoughts about women I see on the street and in the work place, and am awash in selfishness, greed, and questionable character. I look at myself in the mirror every morning and dislike what I see.
My family and friends think I’m a good person. Yes, I’m nice. I treat others with respect and hate to see people angry or sad (thus I do everything in my power to make them laugh). But I’m not a good person. Not as good as I know I can be. There is darkness inside of me and, try as I might, it refuses to leave. While I know this is a lot of TMI, especially for a first-time poster such as myself, I realize now I can’t go make it through this journey alone. I’ve tried and I’ve failed. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I push myself, I always give into temptation.
So I ask all of you, Catholic and Protestant alike, to please pray for me. Please pray that some strength I never knew I had will bubble up to the surface. That way, if and when the time comes, I will be able to do the right thing. I am a sinful man doing my best to walk the straight and narrow, but these worldly pleasures that are all around us are just too much for me. I need your prayers and your blessings so that I may be able to conquer those temptations and rise above my sinful nature.
Thank you and God bless.
As my username suggests, I am a trying Catholic. This isn’t self-pity or self-deprecation as some might interpret it as - it’s the truth. I try so hard to go to Mass, to obey the commandments, and to lead a life worthy of our Savior who died on the cross for our sins. But every time I embark upon a new journey of faith, I stumble back into a state of mortal sin. I know what I do is wrong yet I do it anyway. I’m addicted to porn, I think adulterous thoughts about women I see on the street and in the work place, and am awash in selfishness, greed, and questionable character. I look at myself in the mirror every morning and dislike what I see.
My family and friends think I’m a good person. Yes, I’m nice. I treat others with respect and hate to see people angry or sad (thus I do everything in my power to make them laugh). But I’m not a good person. Not as good as I know I can be. There is darkness inside of me and, try as I might, it refuses to leave. While I know this is a lot of TMI, especially for a first-time poster such as myself, I realize now I can’t go make it through this journey alone. I’ve tried and I’ve failed. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I push myself, I always give into temptation.
So I ask all of you, Catholic and Protestant alike, to please pray for me. Please pray that some strength I never knew I had will bubble up to the surface. That way, if and when the time comes, I will be able to do the right thing. I am a sinful man doing my best to walk the straight and narrow, but these worldly pleasures that are all around us are just too much for me. I need your prayers and your blessings so that I may be able to conquer those temptations and rise above my sinful nature.
Thank you and God bless.
Last edited:
