I have NEVER prayed so hard and sincere in my life! With the help of faithful sisters and brothers here and all that have prayed, I am writing to say that a miracle happened. He came home, lost and upset, but safely and unharmed. He spent a few days at the hospital and doctors said he was on medication overload. He has a rare blood disorder and is on a dozen different medications. Recently, a pill for A.D.D. was added along with a brand new depression pill in the 2 weeks prior to his issue. The docs said the combination of the meds was enough to kill a horse and caused so much irrational thinking. His meds have been re-regulated.
I, however, have a newer passion for the Lord Jesus. After all my years of going to Catholic School as a young girl and church…I was able to REALLY communicate and feel God through this experience. I made promises to God and all the Angels and Saints in return for his safety. At one point, I really thought he had harmed himself and the outcome would be terrible. But through sincere prayer, and knowing God was really hearing my cry…I began to feel God take control of the situation. I had been begging God to please shine his light and strength into my bf’s heart and soul and reach out to me for help. And that is exactly what happened, although it took many long days before it did. I am not sure if anyone will truely believe me or not, but between God and I…I witnessed a true personal experience miracle!
In the days that have followed, I have been sick and can’t stop shaking from the anxiety. I am trying to heal and feel better physically, but my mental state of mind has never been stronger…because I feel my “God does not give what one cannot handle.” I realize how blessed I truely am in my new revelation and renewed relationship with God. Seriolusly, I am not going to take for granted this miracle, I am going to grasp it each day and thank God and walk in his footsteps and share his word. It is not a time to get my prayers answered and turn and walk away…no not at all…I will not do that…I am walking with the Lord with pride because he is with us all.
I know my bf has a lot of relationships to repair, and though I can pray and support him, I cannot do the repairs for him. There are a lot of people who will criticize and judge him, and for that reason I will pray for him and his healing everyday. He feels awful about what everyone went through, while he stayed in a hotel contemplating taking his own life everyday. He realizes how selfish it was at the time and said he was not thinking about his loved ones and what they were going through. He is truely very sorry.
We went to a new church this Sunday and the message was very clear, readings from the book of James, and how “what comes off our tongues” portrays who we are and the damage it can do. I learned to be careful what I say and if I truely am bonded with Jesus, the way I talk portrays whats in my heart. I don’t want to be a hypocrite, and so I am going to continue to work harder at portraying my heart and soul and showing it from the inside out.
With all this said, I Thank All of You for your prayers and support through this extremely traumatic experience. Your prayers were felt and gave us wings to get through this. Thank you soOOO much.
Angel of God…My Guardian Dear…To Whom God’s Love Commits me here…Ever this day, be at my side…to Light, to Love, to Rule and Guide. Amen
