The Jews waited about 2000 YEARS from Abraham until the final arrival of the Messiah! Three days is just a moment in comparison!
You seem to be testing God and withholding faith until God proves Himself to you.
2119 Tempting God consists in putting his goodness and almighty power to the test by word or deed. Thus Satan tried to induce Jesus to throw himself down from the Temple and, by this gesture, force God to act. 49 Jesus opposed Satan with the word of God: “You shall not put the LORD your God to the test.” 50 The challenge contained in such tempting of God wounds the respect and trust we owe our Creator and Lord. It always harbors doubt about his love, his providence, and his power.51 (CCC)
I want to be really clear. We must TRUST GOD. We must have faith first! You do not SEE the answers you would like (within your time frame) so you will not BELIEVE. The problem is that we are asked to BELIEVE and then we will SEE! It may take three minutes, three hours or three centuries! We must persevere. We must not stop believing.
God may in fact already have answered your prayers. He may have said,“No!” Perhaps He is more concerned by your lack of faith than your lack of funds. He will not prove Himself to you to get that faith. He already sent the Patriarchs, the Prophets, His Son, and the Saints!
I suggest you change your prayer.
The Act of Faith
O my God, I firmly believe that you are one God in three Divine Persons, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit; I believe that your Divine Son became man, and died for our sins, and that He will come to judge the living and the dead. I believe these and all the truths the Holy Catholic Church teaches because You have revealed them, who can neither deceive nor be deceived.
Prayer for Faith in Time of Doubt
I don’t even know what to say, Blessed Lord,
I am so confused.
I am caught in the midst of a violent crisis of faith,
so uncertain and doubtful.
I am going through a difficult time
in what touches the depth of my belief.
I am almost tempted to give in
to impatience and despair.
Something within me cries out for you,
yet you seem not to be there.
I have broken away from many childhood beliefs.
I decided to let me faith pass through the filter
of my personal experience.
Suddenly, I found myself too far from you,
from security and certainty.
If I still turn to you, Blessed Lord,
it is because I have not yet lost
the hope of finding
an exit door
for my spiritual anguish
I begin to realize
that by myself I will not be able to overcome
life’s ambiguities and contradictions.
I know the mystery of you continues,
and that my faith-existence is a challenge
to be embraced.
The light of your occasional shadowy presence
makes me see that my crisis comes
from the depth of my maturity,
from the depth of my faith.
The irony, Lord;
there is a crisis of doubt
only because there is faith.
Perhaps I have become too demanding
and too positive.
Open my heart, Lord,
to the right attitude
when confronted with questions
of my faith.
Patience
Heavenly Father, give me the patience to wait in humility and love for Your blessings to come into my life. Let me know that every prayer we pray to You is always answered. Let me not lose patience and go my own way for I know my way is not always Your way and my time is not Your time. For you, dear Lord, are always right on time when we need You. And the blessings You bestow far exceed what we ask for. Thank You for my life, my chance to be worthy of Your great love and Your great reward which You have promised to all who believe in You. Amen!
