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Melodeonist
Guest
Since at least the last semester, all I’ve wanted to do is watch pointless YouTube videos all day. I don’t want to do this, but it’s hard to stop. I like to call YouTube and gaming “Digital Heroin” because that’s what it feels like: Extremely addictive and time draining.
Since all my mind wants to do is watch stupid videos, I’ve lost all motivation to do anything else, such as practice music, do homework, pray, check my emails, or read the bible. This “addiction” only happens when I’m at my computer. If I go anywhere else, be it work, outside, to college, or just the bathroom I can easily do my homework.
Please pray that I can overcome this Internet addiction, that I can regain my motivation to do my homework (not that I ever really wanted to do it to be honest), that I can get motivated to pray again, and to get motivated to play music more often. Thanks!
P.S.
Of course, the homework thing is another story of it’s own because while I am getting good grades, I really don’t want to be a computer guy. My favorite thing is interacting with people and making them happy. You can’t do that as a programmer. My dream job is the job I have already at a local supermarket. I’ve always wanted to work in a store since I was a little kid, and I love it! I love talking to the customers and doing the register/stocking the shelves/filling people’s cars with gas. I know I would hate being stuffed away in an office. I’m happy as it is, but it’s a shame I can’t work at the supermarket forever unless I won the lottery or had two jobs. I am pretty sure I’m not called to marriage as I’ve always felt it wasn’t for me since I was a small child. I’m pretty sure I could easily make about $25,000 a year with two jobs which would be perfect for supporting me by myself. I’m pretty sure this last text group has turned into a bit of a ramble so I’ll stop now.
Since all my mind wants to do is watch stupid videos, I’ve lost all motivation to do anything else, such as practice music, do homework, pray, check my emails, or read the bible. This “addiction” only happens when I’m at my computer. If I go anywhere else, be it work, outside, to college, or just the bathroom I can easily do my homework.
Please pray that I can overcome this Internet addiction, that I can regain my motivation to do my homework (not that I ever really wanted to do it to be honest), that I can get motivated to pray again, and to get motivated to play music more often. Thanks!
P.S.
Of course, the homework thing is another story of it’s own because while I am getting good grades, I really don’t want to be a computer guy. My favorite thing is interacting with people and making them happy. You can’t do that as a programmer. My dream job is the job I have already at a local supermarket. I’ve always wanted to work in a store since I was a little kid, and I love it! I love talking to the customers and doing the register/stocking the shelves/filling people’s cars with gas. I know I would hate being stuffed away in an office. I’m happy as it is, but it’s a shame I can’t work at the supermarket forever unless I won the lottery or had two jobs. I am pretty sure I’m not called to marriage as I’ve always felt it wasn’t for me since I was a small child. I’m pretty sure I could easily make about $25,000 a year with two jobs which would be perfect for supporting me by myself. I’m pretty sure this last text group has turned into a bit of a ramble so I’ll stop now.
