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lisa238
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I feel like I’m being selfish in asking for prayers for myself, but I just need to share my feelings for my own sanity, I am feeling so useless right now and everyone I would normally turn to for support seems to be too busy for me. I feel like I won’t get anywhere with my life and I am trying so hard.
A couple months ago I looked very hard to find a job close enough that I wouldn’t spend all my earnings paying for gas. I only got one call in response to over 40 applications that I submitted, and it looked very promising when I interviewed. She led me to believe that I had the job and that she was only checking my references as a formality, but a few days later I called to follow up and she said that she found a better candidate.
Anyway, I was not able to find any employment for the summer and I already had to transfer from a college I really liked to the local community college since I could not afford it even with a large scholarship. I am still trying to find a job and I haven’t had any luck at all.
So pretty much, instead of working most of the time like I wanted to, I’ve been cleaning the house and teaching myself Java. What I find really depressing is that when I was in school I heard a lot of people bragging about how they didn’t do anything when they went to work and how they cheated to get paid for basically doing nothing. When I do go out I find that a lot of these people are working and somehow manage to keep their jobs. Meanwhile, I work very very hard and I can’t even get a call returned. A few times I have seen positions advertised for a while after I apply. I didn’t even get my calls returned when I inquired about volunteer positions in several places.
Please pray that I am able to find work so that I can feel like I am doing something toward my future. Right now I feel like the world is against me and like no one wants me to have a bright future. Its not so much a matter of money to me anymore, its a matter of feeling like I’m worth something and like I have a place in society.
A couple months ago I looked very hard to find a job close enough that I wouldn’t spend all my earnings paying for gas. I only got one call in response to over 40 applications that I submitted, and it looked very promising when I interviewed. She led me to believe that I had the job and that she was only checking my references as a formality, but a few days later I called to follow up and she said that she found a better candidate.
Anyway, I was not able to find any employment for the summer and I already had to transfer from a college I really liked to the local community college since I could not afford it even with a large scholarship. I am still trying to find a job and I haven’t had any luck at all.
So pretty much, instead of working most of the time like I wanted to, I’ve been cleaning the house and teaching myself Java. What I find really depressing is that when I was in school I heard a lot of people bragging about how they didn’t do anything when they went to work and how they cheated to get paid for basically doing nothing. When I do go out I find that a lot of these people are working and somehow manage to keep their jobs. Meanwhile, I work very very hard and I can’t even get a call returned. A few times I have seen positions advertised for a while after I apply. I didn’t even get my calls returned when I inquired about volunteer positions in several places.
Please pray that I am able to find work so that I can feel like I am doing something toward my future. Right now I feel like the world is against me and like no one wants me to have a bright future. Its not so much a matter of money to me anymore, its a matter of feeling like I’m worth something and like I have a place in society.
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