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Just_wondering
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I’m mad. Really mad. And I’m itching for a fight. I don’t know whether I want to be mad or calm down or cry.
My boyfriend just got back to Korea. This is great. This is his first weekend back. I saw him briefly on Friday, and he implied that he’d come over Sunday afternoon. (He didn’t exactly say he would, but he usually comes and he said he wouldn’t take a Sunday shift no matter what because it had been so long since we’d seen each other.) Last night he did overtime and worked all night, so I didn’t mind when today he hadn’t phoned by 8pm. I figured he was sleeping after his 22-hour shift. I called him at 8:30, and he didn’t answer. Maybe he was still sleeping or in the shower or something. I phoned again at 9pm and his phone was turned off.
It’s 1am and his phone is still off. I am taking it as a personal rejection. I’m trying not to, but my mind is coming up with all sorts of possibilities, and none of them happy ones. I’m mad.
We both work six days a week. I’m working evening shift until midnight. He’s working night shift. We really don’t have time to see each other during the week. This was the only time we could have seen each other, and he not only didn’t come, but he didn’t call and he didn’t answer his phone, and it seems that he shut his phone off after I tried to call.
I really need to calm down. I really want to stay mad.
My boyfriend just got back to Korea. This is great. This is his first weekend back. I saw him briefly on Friday, and he implied that he’d come over Sunday afternoon. (He didn’t exactly say he would, but he usually comes and he said he wouldn’t take a Sunday shift no matter what because it had been so long since we’d seen each other.) Last night he did overtime and worked all night, so I didn’t mind when today he hadn’t phoned by 8pm. I figured he was sleeping after his 22-hour shift. I called him at 8:30, and he didn’t answer. Maybe he was still sleeping or in the shower or something. I phoned again at 9pm and his phone was turned off.
It’s 1am and his phone is still off. I am taking it as a personal rejection. I’m trying not to, but my mind is coming up with all sorts of possibilities, and none of them happy ones. I’m mad.
We both work six days a week. I’m working evening shift until midnight. He’s working night shift. We really don’t have time to see each other during the week. This was the only time we could have seen each other, and he not only didn’t come, but he didn’t call and he didn’t answer his phone, and it seems that he shut his phone off after I tried to call. I really need to calm down. I really want to stay mad.
. There is no room in it for anger. Fill your heart with mercy instead, God created your boyfriend imperfect. He will forever make mistakes, it is natural of humanity. If you are mad, is because you love him 
, but while he decides to show up, take advantage of the time given to speak to your True and Perfect First Love 
. That is why the first commandment is soooo wise, “To Love the Lord your God above all things”!!! Leave anger behind, knowing that only Jesus will never fail or dissapoint you, this will give you a great sence of inner peace and mercy for your loved ones, knowing that they will forever be imperfect. Whenever your boyfriend or loved ones dissapoint you, do not waste time being mad, go straight to the one that can actually provide that perfect love for you and will one day gift you with the most perfect state of Living in eternity. Be Happy 