Pray for me! Watched pornography and masturbated after a month and 21 days clean

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I felt so free and clean for the past month and 21 days. My catholic faith was nurtured and grew deeper than ever and I had literally zero urge to commit this sin. Now that I fell I committed this twice even after praying to my guardian angel and offering my day to God and to avoid this. I fear im going to get tangled back into this web and im not going to be as firm in my desire to stay away from that filth 😦
 
I know how that feels. For me, the urges can be so intense that I start to wonder if God even considers me to be one of His devotees. For now, just focus on getting through the day. Don’t concern yourself with how you’ll be in a year from now, a month from now or one day from now.

I pray that God assists you in your walk with Christ. Amen.
 
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Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

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Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

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Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

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Prayer to Our Lady of Mental Peace

O Lady of Mental Peace,

Mother of Tranquility

and Mother of Hope,

look upon AltarSoldier in this time

of weakness and unrest.

Teach her searching heart

to know that God’s Love

for her is unchanging and

unchangeable, and, that

true human love can only

begin and grow by touching

His Love.

Let your gentle Peace -

which this world cannot give
  • be always with her.
And, help her to bring this

same Peace into the lives

of others.

Our Lady of Mental Peace,
  • Pray for us!
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Praying for you. Also, keep yourself busy and distracted with other activities to avoid the temptation.

Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done,
on earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen.
 
Praying for you.

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thine intercession was left unaided.

Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my mother; to thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me.

Amen.
 
Remember, God walks alongside us throughout our lives. He is there standing next to us holding his hand out to lift us as we find ourselves on the floor. All he wants is for us to reach for his hand and grasp it as he helps us to our feet again. Confession is that firm grasp and I sense that that you realise this. Grasp his hand and have a happy Christmas as you deserve.
 
May the season bring Blessings from our Lord.

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Was it your intent to do this or did you just give in to your hormones? If you pre-planed and anticipated it then, that would be sinful; otherwise, if events just happen suddenly and you gave in to the temptation in a moment of weakness that is another thing. From what I understand the sin of masturbation is that in the end you “spill your seed” and thereby deny the existence of life. i.e. you “killed” a soul; however, if you were not in a situation where procreation could not possibly happen then it becomes less serious and is more a lack of control of your desires. You could make an act of contrition and move on with your life.

Now to complicate it a bit - if you are having this compulsion very frequently, even multiple times a day - then you need to get your mind off of this and focus on productive activities such as going for a walk - helping people out, looking for a hobby such as reading etc. Good Luck. Most people have been at this point and the majority were able to grow out if it.
 
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Was it your intent to do this or did you just give in to your hormones? If you pre-planed and anticipated it then, that would be sinful; otherwise, if events just happen suddenly and you gave in to the temptation in a moment of weakness that is another thing. From what I understand the sin of masturbation is that in the end you “spill your seed” and thereby deny the existence of life. i.e. you “killed” a soul; however, if you were not in a situation where procreation could not possibly happen then it becomes less serious and is more a lack of control of your desires. You could make an act of contrition and move on with your life.

Now to complicate it a bit - if you are having this compulsion very frequently, even multiple times a day - then you need to get your mind off of this and focus on productive activities such as going for a walk - helping people out, looking for a hobby such as reading etc. Good Luck. Most people have been at this point and the majority were able to grow out if it.
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Basically a sudden urge came over me, one that I havent felt in so many weeks and Iknew it was coming and Instead of praying or doing something else to keep busy I entertained the temptation and fell. There were moments in my life where it was frequent compulsions. its an up and down wave with me, sometimes I feel if my overall position and situation in life is in the toilet (or it feels like it) these become frequent but if I keep busy and have goals to look forward to they arent often
 
So it appears that you are single and maybe just a bit frustrated about your current situation. At your age it is not at all unusual for a young man to give in to this temptation frequently. It is not because you are sinful, rather your hormones are causing this to be foremost in your mind and very normal. As suggested before, you should try to find something that gets you out of the house and active physically. If you are able you might consider taking up biking, running, hiking or something like that. The more active you are the less you will think about this and although not guaranteed to make you stop completely, at least minimize it. The best cure - get married, have kids and you will never have time to think about this 🙂
 
I believe that lust is a largely unspoken issue. Though i respect, truly, this not a confessional, I say i understand "there is a process " to recovery from lust/sexually maladaptive conduct. I also respect that as age develops, male sex urges aren’t the same as, say imho, avarice/greed…and , imho, hormones are high in puberty to 40 years or more.

I have really battled this issue. Its underlying emotional conflicts. I’m no saint, just a reformed sinner. I found that the far-reaching issues of feeling like a particular male is losing out on Opportunity by being prudent choosing to try to wait till marriage and maintain his virginity for the sake of walking out God’s will is not necessarily enough… what I mean by this is I know the story of the young man and young couple… they both waited for sex to get married and they never consummated their marriage… and in fact his beautiful bride ran off and cheated with her virginity on another person… how about that?

As well as my own experience I personally chose to stop pornography viewing 5 years ago approximately… Because I was having distorted views of women, and pornography induced erectile dysfunction… I was involved with a very stunningly beautiful girl of mind,heart, soul, and body,and we both were/are catholic… we had a sexual relationship , yet i began incapability of “Normal” unitive lovemaking. I traced Porn to be a huge problem…so I removed it…and still do.

I still had other issues emotionally.

The whole point of why I speak to this specific issue … is because as I grow deeper in my faith and obedience and listen very carefully to the teachings of Archbishop Fulton Sheen on YouTube about the appropriate ways of dating and sexual conduct is not so much to look forward to sharing a unit of lovemaking orgasmic experience and context of a consummated marriage agreement… With a hopefully well found spouse… as I’m never married and have no children… but rather to more ardently pursue a heartfelt relationship to Christ and Christ Alone good. For me that doesn’t mean I get anything I want out of this life it doesn’t mean that all the wealth that I may distribute through my nonprofit work or the health that I have or the respect and boundaries I have with my family of origin will be of any greater service… It just something means that I try to trust Christ and move further into obedient and mortification of My Flesh without any expectations of some return on investment…

I grow every time I keep trying. I think. “Charcter making” as fulton sheen says
 
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