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LoveGod102
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I have this constant compulsion to be perfect. It’s so easy for me to forget how much God loves me as I am. It’s so easy to forget how dependent on Him I am. When I forget these things and sometimes even when I remember, I feel a need to be perfect. I feel as if I’m better than other people, and that I’m not a sinner. Logically, I know this isn’t true, but emotionally…
It bothers me that I feel this way so much. I feel as if I’m always hiding behind a mask, and I’m afraid to let go of this desire for perfection and the feeling as if I’m perfect, because it feels like they protect me. It feels like I’m so fragile underneath this mask, and that if I let go, I’ll just fall apart. Logically, I know this isn’t true either, but emotionally I can’t seem to let go. I don’t know how to let go, even when I try. I need Jesus. I can’t do this alone.
Pray for me please.
It bothers me that I feel this way so much. I feel as if I’m always hiding behind a mask, and I’m afraid to let go of this desire for perfection and the feeling as if I’m perfect, because it feels like they protect me. It feels like I’m so fragile underneath this mask, and that if I let go, I’ll just fall apart. Logically, I know this isn’t true either, but emotionally I can’t seem to let go. I don’t know how to let go, even when I try. I need Jesus. I can’t do this alone.
Pray for me please.
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