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Brothers and Sisters,
The Lord came into my heart November 2011.
I was born and raised in a Christian Catholic family. I went to a Jesuit High School. I was baptized, I received the sacraments of communion and confirmation. However, I believe that during most of that time I studied and accepted the word of Jesus, but I did not truly believe in Him.
During my college and graduate school years, I let myself fall. I started believing in the lies of the World. Those lies that appear to be ok.
[BIBLEDRB]Isaias 5:20[/BIBLEDRB]
I though that masturbation, sexual intercourse, and all those acts were FINE. I started small: masturbating, and it lead me to pornography, later to fornication. I saw myself become an instrument of the Devil to trap other women in my lust. I would seduce them without caring if they had boyfriends, fiancees, or were married. They became sources of sexual gratification to me.
I continued with such sexual immoral life for years. At first, I remember back in 2004 I was hesitant, but the pressure and lies of the World to accept, and my lack of faith and ignorance to the christian values I was taught led me there. I also became arrogant, and I thought that I didn’t need anyone in my life including my parents.
In 2005, I officially caved in to those desires. I met many lustful women, and I let them bring me to them, and later I will seek and seduce women and bring them to me. It also became a way for me to make women submit to me as if they were objects or slaves to my sexual desire. This continued for years until 2010.
In 2010, the seeds I have planted returned to me in Hate. Some of the women I had used forgave me and moved on, but some of them HATED me and some even looked for revenge. Some of them got their revenge and hurt me. I ignored all this until November 2011.
In November 2011, the Lord knocked my door. I felt in mid November 2011 a big burden in my heart. I fell into depression. I didn’t understand why as I had decided after such previous events to just be alone, and I was alone for most of 2011.
One night, I couldn’t sleep and everything I have done, and even those acts I considered were “OK” were brought into my mind. All the memories!!, I cried the whole night!. I didn’t know what to do.
The Lord never left me, and back in 2009 I met a friend that gave me a bible. I remember I put that bible somewhere on my desk in my bedroom and never looked at it again.
I reached out for the bible, and I started reading and praying!. I started the whole process of penance. I went back to Church. God provided me with a fellowship (just like he provided me with a bible).
In December 2011, I came completely to the Lord. I have been praying. I confessed, and I am doing my penance to return to the Church.
I told my parents the good news, and We are all closer than ever.
The Love of the LORD is VAST!.
I ask you all to please accompany and pray with me for my new life in God to server as testimony to others in need. Also for my family that God is rebuilding slowly to serve HIM, and finally for my sister to return to the Lord.
Oh Dear Father,
Your love knows no boundaries.
I was lost, and now I am back.
Father Thanks for receiving me with your ARMS WIDE OPEN!!!.
Father, Thanks for bringing my father and mother back into you in 2009.
I pray that now that I am also back in you that We as a family continue to grow together and always follow your guidance.
Father, I pray for those lost that do not know your or do not acknowledge you, yet!. Guide them back to your O Holy Father. Let my sister come back to you Father.
Let your WILL always be done!
Amen
The Lord came into my heart November 2011.
I was born and raised in a Christian Catholic family. I went to a Jesuit High School. I was baptized, I received the sacraments of communion and confirmation. However, I believe that during most of that time I studied and accepted the word of Jesus, but I did not truly believe in Him.
During my college and graduate school years, I let myself fall. I started believing in the lies of the World. Those lies that appear to be ok.
[BIBLEDRB]Isaias 5:20[/BIBLEDRB]
I though that masturbation, sexual intercourse, and all those acts were FINE. I started small: masturbating, and it lead me to pornography, later to fornication. I saw myself become an instrument of the Devil to trap other women in my lust. I would seduce them without caring if they had boyfriends, fiancees, or were married. They became sources of sexual gratification to me.
I continued with such sexual immoral life for years. At first, I remember back in 2004 I was hesitant, but the pressure and lies of the World to accept, and my lack of faith and ignorance to the christian values I was taught led me there. I also became arrogant, and I thought that I didn’t need anyone in my life including my parents.
In 2005, I officially caved in to those desires. I met many lustful women, and I let them bring me to them, and later I will seek and seduce women and bring them to me. It also became a way for me to make women submit to me as if they were objects or slaves to my sexual desire. This continued for years until 2010.
In 2010, the seeds I have planted returned to me in Hate. Some of the women I had used forgave me and moved on, but some of them HATED me and some even looked for revenge. Some of them got their revenge and hurt me. I ignored all this until November 2011.
In November 2011, the Lord knocked my door. I felt in mid November 2011 a big burden in my heart. I fell into depression. I didn’t understand why as I had decided after such previous events to just be alone, and I was alone for most of 2011.
One night, I couldn’t sleep and everything I have done, and even those acts I considered were “OK” were brought into my mind. All the memories!!, I cried the whole night!. I didn’t know what to do.
The Lord never left me, and back in 2009 I met a friend that gave me a bible. I remember I put that bible somewhere on my desk in my bedroom and never looked at it again.
I reached out for the bible, and I started reading and praying!. I started the whole process of penance. I went back to Church. God provided me with a fellowship (just like he provided me with a bible).
In December 2011, I came completely to the Lord. I have been praying. I confessed, and I am doing my penance to return to the Church.
I told my parents the good news, and We are all closer than ever.
The Love of the LORD is VAST!.
I ask you all to please accompany and pray with me for my new life in God to server as testimony to others in need. Also for my family that God is rebuilding slowly to serve HIM, and finally for my sister to return to the Lord.
Oh Dear Father,
Your love knows no boundaries.
I was lost, and now I am back.
Father Thanks for receiving me with your ARMS WIDE OPEN!!!.
Father, Thanks for bringing my father and mother back into you in 2009.
I pray that now that I am also back in you that We as a family continue to grow together and always follow your guidance.
Father, I pray for those lost that do not know your or do not acknowledge you, yet!. Guide them back to your O Holy Father. Let my sister come back to you Father.
Let your WILL always be done!
Amen