Dear Happy Irony,
I hope you mean you are going to Confession when you say I am going to meet my judgement??
God judges you most worthy of His Mercy because most in need of Mercy. The more unworthy you feel, the more you have an absolute right to His Mercy. My Mercy is made for your misery Jesus says to Saint Faustina. The more a soul humbles itself, humiliated in deepest sorrow and perfect contrition for its sins, their sighs pain and tears beckon Me from Heaven-I precipitate Myself from Heaven, swifter than an eagle upon its prey, to snatch the sinner, I swoop down to catch their tears before the hit the ground and prevent all others from falling, in order to paraphrase what Jesus says to different Saints.
This moment was the very point of His whole existence on earth. It is like a physician who spends his life studying to heal and finally someone lets him save their life, as a far but real analogy. How much He has been waiting for this moment, since before we were born, the moment when we turn to Him. He is there before you are, waiting, imploring beckoning to step into His Light. No one is beyond saving who wants to be saved. Even if a soul were like a body in mortal decay(or moral or spiritual), Jesus says, paraphrasing once again-beyond all help from any physician, discarded as hopeless, if that souls trusts in Me, I will save it. Nay, I will exalt that soul to the highest Heaven because it has trusted me in the pit which has more merit than those who trust me in times of peace.
No pit is so deep that God is not deeper still, says a survivor from a german concentration camp. Where our sin abounds, grace and mercy overabound. Go to your judgement, go to your healing, to your peace, to your joy, go to your reward of a new life of intimacy with Jesus, back home where you belong.
