Prayer for a post-abortion broken heart

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for the past two years, I have been going through a lot.

I bumped into my ex-boyfriend yesterday and he already moved on with his happy new life. Seeing him again is really haunting me.

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me while I was pregnant and his family forced me to an abortion. I then was diagnosed with severe depression; crying, loss of interest, suicidal plans well, I have most of typical depression symptoms. I regret not fighting for the right of my unborn every single day. Even these days, after 2 years, I still cry my eyes out randomly several times a day. I lost my grandma who I grew up with last year, making my situation even worse. Two months ago I got laid off and still had no luck with my job hunting.

I feel like buried with pains, regrets and sorrows every day. I always go back to the abortion clinic to pray for my unborn and all the rest, praying that ladies change their mind not stepping into that place. I went to confession several times, but still feel like unforgivable.

I feel like trapped in the old relationship. I could not move on with any new guy because I am still not over my ex who did all these to me. sometimes I really hate myself for being so.

I keep praying for my unborn and myself. However, nothing positive has happened. I just feel like everything on me is going worse and worse. I could only tell myself that when it comes to the worst, nothing can be worse. But things just keep getting worse and worse for the past two years.

I know this is very wrong, but to be honest, I kinda of feeling ditched by our God. Please, here, I am sincerely asking for your prayer for my miserable life and my broken heart.

PS. I really appreciate you reading through such a long post. Thank you. God bless.
 
Your praying for those tempted to abort their babies is an indication that God’s grace is active in your life. You would not do this unless it is God’s love and God’s grace leading you to pray for these women and their babies. This alone shows God’s forgiveness working in your life. This is a real and positive indication of God’s grace and love…that you allow God to use you as an instrument of prayer and witness for them.

I ask You our God to please help this girl to begin to face these griefs with You, and to begin, and continue, to find wholesome ways of living the rest of her life.

You child is aware that because his or her own life was lost, his/her dear mother is praying that other babies will be saved, and their mothers will be saved from guilt and grief. I’m sure your baby is proud of you. Ask your baby’s forgiveness and tell your little one that you love him/her. And ask Jesus to help you to let go of your attachment to this man who sinned so badly against your child and you. Jesus please lead her in these healing graces
 
Hi there,

I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I know what it’s like to be trapped in depression while things in life are getting worse, and see a significant other happily move on.
But please don’t despair. Things will get better and you will heal. Just keep praying. God hasn’t ditched you, He’s with you in every painful moment of your life.

When I was going through that horrible period I ended up in councelling and it really helped me pull myself together. My councellor was a nice Christian lady, which made me discuss my problems in a certain way. Perhaps you could do the same. A person who will not judge you and will understand and respect your faith is so important.

Have you discussed these things with a priest? Maybe next time you go to confession you can tell him how much you are suffering and explain that you find it difficult to forgive yourself.

Hang in there! Praying for you. :console:
 
Hi epsummer,

The God we worship is all forgiving and loves us a great deal.

He suffers with us and goes through our pain with us.

He knows you and befriended you from the very begining of your life.

Why would you not feel forgiven when He has washed away your sins with his blood?

Why would you doubt the efficacy of that Blood shared for all so that our sins may be forgiven?

Take heart, you have a friend in Jesus, he loves you, has forgiven you and has befriended you.

You will be doubting his power to forgive if you still dwell in self pity. Pick yourself up and rejoice in your new found life. Forget your exboy friend. He was a chapter in your life that is now over. Do not go back to the past, forge ahead and live your life. God gave you a life to enjoy. You made a mistake, learnt your lesson, has now been forgiven, now move on. Do not continue to waddle in the mud wandering and wondering what next.

May the Almighthy bless you, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. AMEN

Love

odopa
 
epsummer said:
for the past two years, I have been going through a lot.

I bumped into my ex-boyfriend yesterday and he already moved on with his happy new life. Seeing him again is really haunting me.

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me while I was pregnant and his family forced me to an abortion. I then was diagnosed with severe depression; crying, loss of interest, suicidal plans well, I have most of typical depression symptoms. I regret not fighting for the right of my unborn every single day. Even these days, after 2 years, I still cry my eyes out randomly several times a day. I lost my grandma who I grew up with last year, making my situation even worse. Two months ago I got laid off and still had no luck with my job hunting.

I feel like buried with pains, regrets and sorrows every day. I always go back to the abortion clinic to pray for my unborn and all the rest, praying that ladies change their mind not stepping into that place. I went to confession several times, but still feel like unforgivable.

I feel like trapped in the old relationship. I could not move on with any new guy because I am still not over my ex who did all these to me. sometimes I really hate myself for being so.

I keep praying for my unborn and myself. However, nothing positive has happened. I just feel like everything on me is going worse and worse. I could only tell myself that when it comes to the worst, nothing can be worse. But things just keep getting worse and worse for the past two years.

I know this is very wrong, but to be honest, I kinda of feeling ditched by our God. Please, here, I am sincerely asking for your prayer for my miserable life and my broken heart.

PS. I really appreciate you reading through such a long post. Thank you. God bless.
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You do not need to be sorry for your “long post” as you need to give expression of the burden that you carry.I have heard the stories of the sadness that women have after having an abortion.My prayers are with you on your healing journey,here is a link that you might help you along the road to comfort you and give you support by even reading Broken Branches.The editor Anne Lastman is a world renowned speaker,she has written a wonderful book called Redeeming Grief (the best book ever written on the issue of recovery-worth purchasing for everyone interested in this work for souls).She is a wonderful spiritual woman and she can speak from her own personal experience of her own three abortions and the years she has spent as a professional psychologist.She has given her life in helping women in their grief and sorrow;her apostolate is always done for gratis.

God Bless,may the sorrowful Hearts of Jesus and Mary,give your heart rest and peace.:hug1:

www.victimsofabortion.com.au
 
Praying hard for you to find happiness and peace of mind. Our God is a forgiving God and loves you no matter what.
 
Been there also, I aways regret my now wife’s abortion. DHS has custody of are son now.
I feel like God has taken him away from us because we aborted his sibling12 years ago.
I will Pray for you.
 
There is a group, called Project Rachel. Here is a link hopeafterabortion.com/ I believe that it is a support group for woman, such as yourself who have had an abortion. You may want to look into that.

Aside from this, I want you to know that nothing can separate you from the love of God. I pray that you seek Him in the sacrament of reconcilliation …
 
I will keep you in my prayers. Definitely consider attending a Project Rachel retreat. You may find it to be very healing. Spending time in Adoration or praying the rosary can help in times of darkness. God is with you, you arent walking alone. Also, if you arent already seeking medical help for your depression, please do so.

I know what it is like to have a broken heart. And to have your ex move on when you havent yet. Gods love is the only love that will never disappoint you. And Gods love is better than any ex-boyfriends. I will be praying for you.

Sincerely,

Maria1212
 
I really appreciate for all those replies.

Good news, I got an interview next week!!! This is so unbelievable, this is the first interview I got in 2 months. It is really the time to battle my depression and leave all my baggages behind.

Thanks again for your prayers. May God bless you all.
 
I would love to attend Project Rachel, however, it is only offered in the US and I am living in Canada.

The prayers on the website are pretty soothing. Hope I could find my peace and healing.
 
karoleck said:
You do not need to be sorry for your “long post” as you need to give expression of the burden that you carry.I have heard the stories of the sadness that women have after having an abortion.My prayers are with you on your healing journey,here is a link that you might help you along the road to comfort you and give you support by even reading Broken Branches.The editor Anne Lastman is a world renowned speaker,she has written a wonderful book called Redeeming Grief (the best book ever written on the issue of recovery-worth purchasing for everyone interested in this work for souls).She is a wonderful spiritual woman and she can speak from her own personal experience of her own three abortions and the years she has spent as a professional psychologist.She has given her life in helping women in their grief and sorrow;her apostolate is always done for gratis.

God Bless,may the sorrowful Hearts of Jesus and Mary,give your heart rest and peace.:hug1:

There is one correct from the above posting–Anne Lastman had two abortions not three;I was confusing her with that wonderful christian woman Dennis Mountenay the cofounder of Canada Silent No More.I have had the joy of hearing the stories of these two great humble repentant souls ;whom God is using to reach out to hurting persons like yourself.
Here is the Link for Canada Silient No More–it is people like yourself who are going to help end abortions–as you are another victim to the culture of death.

canacal.com/canada/about.cfm

There is just one small point that struck me when I read your original posting–you said "your ex boyfriend has moved along with** HIS HAPPY LIFE**.do not believe this for one second–in his heart of hearts ,he knows that he did not step up and be a man to protect your baby and support you.Shame on my male race that does not support and protect vulnerable mothers.St.Joseph,pray for us.

www.victimsofabortion.com.au
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karoleck:
Dear Karoleck,

Thanks so much for the book and the information about silent no more. I have googled the website of it, would love to be helped and help women/girls in my area.

yes, my ex did NOT even have a trace of feeling toward my abortion. this is very hard for me accept as well. His family and him all want the baby gone so that he could break up with me without any clinging. The scene of forcing me to the abortion clinic is still vivid now. His whole family, even some relatives came along and almost grabbed me into the car. I was so numbed coz i was expecting them talking about our engagement party.

sigh… I prolly should keep all the fathers in my prayer as well.
 
epsummer said:
Dear Karoleck,

Thanks so much for the book and the information about silent no more. I have googled the website of it, would love to be helped and help women/girls in my area.

yes, my ex did NOT even have a trace of feeling toward my abortion. this is very hard for me accept as well. His family and him all want the baby gone so that he could break up with me without any clinging. The scene of forcing me to the abortion clinic is still vivid now. His whole family, even some relatives came along and almost grabbed me into the car. I was so numbed coz i was expecting them talking about our engagement party.

sigh… I prolly should keep all the fathers in my prayer as well.
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Where was your mother at the time? How old were you when you had the abortion?
 
I agree with what Trishie said. You have not been abandoned by God, He is at work in you and wants so much to bring you complete healing. There is a group called “Silent No More” from the group Priests for Life, if you contact them you might be able to be referred to a counselor very familiar with what you are working through. (mail@priestsforlife.org or call 888-735-3448 or 718-980-4400) You are definately not alone, and the Lord wants so much to heal your heart. You want this too or you wouldn’t have posted this. I will pray for you dear one.

Lord, provide the healing of memories in this woman’s life. Restore what was broken and bring her complete healing through the precious name of Your Son, Jesus our Lord, Amen.
Thanks be to God who is able to do abundantly more than we ask or think! :crossrc::highprayer:
mlz
 
epsummer said:
I was 22 at the time, just graduated from university away from my home country. I really had no one else to run to.
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I see I did not know you were on line as I started to do work outside. So were you a USA citizen?
 
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